Separation Anxiety
My son's first offical day of school.
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This cannot be my life already. What have I not done? Everything. I have tried to be friendly. I have tried to get others to like me and I guess I have but I still end up getting fucked over. Sure, I have been mean and cruel at times but most of the time I cannot understand what or why I am saying these things. I wish that I could be alone but I know if I were to be I would not last long. So, much to say and its not even what I am thinking about completely. A long letter of resignation. It is hard to quit the only job I have know how to do. Will I ever turn this in? I am in photography class... why am I sad? What am I going to do? Life would be better if I did not feel so sick.
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... I feel a bit better now. I should have taken the next level of photography but this should be a good way to start off my three year absence. Leonard Cohen is amazing.
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This cannot be my life already. What have I not done? Everything. I have tried to be friendly. I have tried to get others to like me and I guess I have but I still end up getting fucked over. Sure, I have been mean and cruel at times but most of the time I cannot understand what or why I am saying these things. I wish that I could be alone but I know if I were to be I would not last long. So, much to say and its not even what I am thinking about completely. A long letter of resignation. It is hard to quit the only job I have know how to do. Will I ever turn this in? I am in photography class... why am I sad? What am I going to do? Life would be better if I did not feel so sick.
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... I feel a bit better now. I should have taken the next level of photography but this should be a good way to start off my three year absence. Leonard Cohen is amazing.