cross posted in my own journal

[bethechangex]

i dont know whats wrong with me!
i just keep eating and eating.  Everyday turns into "oh well i binged horribly today but I WILL restrict/fast tomorrow"  
"tomorrow i will start fresh"

what happened to my control?!
what happened to me?
i am disgusting.
165 pounds.
gag me.
or maybe i will just gag myself.
i have never purged...but it's never looked so appealing until now.



try not to vomit.

sorry if this isnt behind a link?!
i tried.