Intro
Hello all, I'm in a weird place in my disorder right now and am finding that my support group isn't very keen on talking about some of the nitty-gritty, so to speak, and I don't always feel like I can talk about wanting to stay disordered or go into any details about stuff like that. So here I am!
Name & age: Megan; 23 but will be 24 in a few weeks
Diagnosis/Behavior that is relevant to the community: Current diagnosis is ED-NOS, was diagnosed with Bulimia at 17
Why you're here, and what you're looking for: I'm here because I need somewhere else to vent about being torn between recovery and my ED...I have gained about 40lbs since first going into treatment and the weight gain is really triggering me to go back to my old behaviors.
Anything else you'd like to tell us: I was first put into an outpatient treatment program that was part medical and part therapy which I did for 2 years. Since I was there involuntarily, I just did enough to get them off my back and didn't really absorb much from it. After they discharged me, I met my partner whom I've been with for 4 years, and after we moved in together my symptoms all but disappeared. However, I still had all the mentality going on, and it was driving me insane. So last year I found a therapy support group in my area that I meet with once a week. I just don't think it's enough, and I can't afford individual therapy. Not that I intend to pour my heart out to you guys, but the therapist discourages talking in specifics which I am able to do here.
Basically I want to try to drop the extra weight without my therapy group breathing down my neck about it. I'm going to Hawaii for 10 days next week and am dreading the bathing suit D: That's more short-term though.
WOW that was long, sorry!
Name & age: Megan; 23 but will be 24 in a few weeks
Diagnosis/Behavior that is relevant to the community: Current diagnosis is ED-NOS, was diagnosed with Bulimia at 17
Why you're here, and what you're looking for: I'm here because I need somewhere else to vent about being torn between recovery and my ED...I have gained about 40lbs since first going into treatment and the weight gain is really triggering me to go back to my old behaviors.
Anything else you'd like to tell us: I was first put into an outpatient treatment program that was part medical and part therapy which I did for 2 years. Since I was there involuntarily, I just did enough to get them off my back and didn't really absorb much from it. After they discharged me, I met my partner whom I've been with for 4 years, and after we moved in together my symptoms all but disappeared. However, I still had all the mentality going on, and it was driving me insane. So last year I found a therapy support group in my area that I meet with once a week. I just don't think it's enough, and I can't afford individual therapy. Not that I intend to pour my heart out to you guys, but the therapist discourages talking in specifics which I am able to do here.
Basically I want to try to drop the extra weight without my therapy group breathing down my neck about it. I'm going to Hawaii for 10 days next week and am dreading the bathing suit D: That's more short-term though.
WOW that was long, sorry!