it's.fucked.up.but.at.the.same.time.it.just.made.me.want.you.even.worse
So last night after i sat around all night cayley called me over to her house. i arrived around midnight i'd say. when i got there she explained to me about Seth. I made cayley make me tots. i also burnt my hands on the tots. the tots ill post on here. so cay talked to seth most of the night. i fell asleep sometime in between andges alarm clock going off at 3 and pix messaging seth. this morning i woke up to my beautiful finch ringtone. i answered the phone and it was some kid claiming to have been going through his yearbook yet, my cell phone # was different last year.... strange. cayley is hanging out with seth and shes supposed to call when shes done.... ok. then kyle called with his usual come over come over oh im sorry about last time bullshit. i told him to come to my house and he said he'd call me back. as if i believed him anyways. i heard something about him being really drunk last night and it was bad. it fucking figures. i hate alcohol. ok i love it but maybe i just hate kyle. im thinking its a little bit of both. cayley is coming over after work because jim is coming home. ewwwww prolly to screw nasty! ok i think thats it for now i will update later if i have to.
night missy. night tots.
what?what? okay!
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As of now I'm down straight up
And I can turn to the box for some peace
Or a box for a piece
Or a box for a smoke
But they're all gonna choke me
You're so crazy
Enough in a way that I'll probably say you destroyed me
It's like a fucking drug deal
I'm sitting here waiting
I'm calling you back
and you won't call me back
and it's fucked up, but at the same time it just made me want you even worse.
For awhile I was cleaner than now
Then I started to destroy myself
With things that I love now the things that I hate
Until it finally broke me
Fuck my ass.
Choke me .