Jul 18, 2006 20:00
I hate more than anything having dreams that tare at you. You wake up so upset and worried that you don't want anything but the love of your life holding you to prove you are no longer in that dream or rather nightmare. I have random dreams where something I love is taken away. One night was Zoe and even tho she really is gone it felt weird to be in a situation like that where I couldn't breathe or Bob wasn't around to be there for me you know? I was alone. Then last night it was my ferrets. When Bob and I went to Maine for a week and had to leave them here I was dying inside. I missed them so much but I also knew they were fine and I had to enjoy my time of being away from so much bullshit. Just last night to dream about my babies not being around, like I couldn't even get to them. It hurt. I just wanted him to be here when I woke up. The sucky thing is he doesn't feel good today after working in the horrific heat and therefore is not here and it sucks ass cuz I need him to hug me. :o(
anyways...
need new job. CVS suuuucks!!