and now, onto a slightly different subject...
i'm about to drink the last sip from a bottle of whiskey that was gifted to me from John Stewart
on New Years Eve 2021. I think about what was going on then. End of 2020. Zake and I still on
speaking terms. He was about to get a DUI after stopping by my apartment. And then the demise
of our friendship. And somehow I knew it. But didnt expect it in such a dramatic fashion. I will
shoot this last sip and remember those days. It still hurts, as if the wound has healed but if you
push it or hit it or tap it the right way, the pain still returns. i just cannot fathom what it
was that caused me to shed 3 of the dearest friends ive known in my entire life in such a short
succinct fashion with such finality. there was no discussion with zake and only minimal with tom
and missy. regardless, with this last sip i say goodbye to the ties with zake and that fateful
evening. may i never know what happened or why but still hold onto some feeble hope. cheers....