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*Wanted* One girl that would be willing to give me the love I'd be able to give them. Is it that hard to find...geeze :(. Love Hates Me(MY LIFE'S PARADOX)
I've had it with this life, I'm tired of being hurt, I'm tired of having to smile through pain, I'm tired of living where everyone knows who I used to be and no one can accept it. I can't even go to a church without being looked at funny because I used to be the "bad preacher kid," I'm tired of having to be the stronghold for my family, I'm tired of having to look out for them over me none stop(Don't get me wrong I love my family and I'd do anything possiable for them...but that's part of the problem it's one thing to need it's another to take advantage.), I'm so worn to the bone having to have this perfect image so much that it drives me insane, I'm so fed up with how everything goes.
Is it so much to ask for a little haven of rest from this weary life? Is it to much to want the love of another? Is it to much to want a second chance without people holding things over your head?
How amazing it seems that Iowa makes so much sense, I really have no reason to stay anymore. I don't have a place, I'm in a place where I'm left behind and watching through the window.
I dont want to do what may happen but I hope you all know that no matter what I love you all.
I've had it with this life, I'm tired of being hurt, I'm tired of having to smile through pain, I'm tired of living where everyone knows who I used to be and no one can accept it. I can't even go to a church without being looked at funny because I used to be the "bad preacher kid," I'm tired of having to be the stronghold for my family, I'm tired of having to look out for them over me none stop(Don't get me wrong I love my family and I'd do anything possiable for them...but that's part of the problem it's one thing to need it's another to take advantage.), I'm so worn to the bone having to have this perfect image so much that it drives me insane, I'm so fed up with how everything goes.
Is it so much to ask for a little haven of rest from this weary life? Is it to much to want the love of another? Is it to much to want a second chance without people holding things over your head?
How amazing it seems that Iowa makes so much sense, I really have no reason to stay anymore. I don't have a place, I'm in a place where I'm left behind and watching through the window.
I dont want to do what may happen but I hope you all know that no matter what I love you all.