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the DUI really bummed me out yesterday.
all these people thought that we just did this really bad job. i guess that really that's anyone's perspective, to sit there and be like, "oh i could have done such a better job than them". i don't know. now i just feel really stupid that i was in it and that i was even scared. it creeped me out so bad to have some stupid hammer and shit just break glass right on my back and to have all these firemen (even though they were hot) just crowd around the car and ask me questions and put me on a stretcher. i wasn't even really hurt. god, and that stupid texas chainsaw thing. afterwards i only wanted to see and be around the people that were in it. partially, because i was embaressed to stand in front of my peers and just have them critique my acting. i'm not an actor, so i don't know what was expected. all i know is that most of the shit that i got from people, was them telling me i could've been so much more real. i'm not sure how much more real tears can get. but ok. i don't even want to go to school on monday, just in case people remember what friday was. and they sit there and just bring it up, and critique me over and over. or tell me that i'm stupid for even getting into it. maybe i am. if people really are just concerned with my acting.... eh. i guess it was just a different experience for everybody. but if we're the only ones that it seriously hit, then i don't even think that thing is worth doing anymore.
all these people thought that we just did this really bad job. i guess that really that's anyone's perspective, to sit there and be like, "oh i could have done such a better job than them". i don't know. now i just feel really stupid that i was in it and that i was even scared. it creeped me out so bad to have some stupid hammer and shit just break glass right on my back and to have all these firemen (even though they were hot) just crowd around the car and ask me questions and put me on a stretcher. i wasn't even really hurt. god, and that stupid texas chainsaw thing. afterwards i only wanted to see and be around the people that were in it. partially, because i was embaressed to stand in front of my peers and just have them critique my acting. i'm not an actor, so i don't know what was expected. all i know is that most of the shit that i got from people, was them telling me i could've been so much more real. i'm not sure how much more real tears can get. but ok. i don't even want to go to school on monday, just in case people remember what friday was. and they sit there and just bring it up, and critique me over and over. or tell me that i'm stupid for even getting into it. maybe i am. if people really are just concerned with my acting.... eh. i guess it was just a different experience for everybody. but if we're the only ones that it seriously hit, then i don't even think that thing is worth doing anymore.