Realization
I realized earlier today, courtesy of my brother why I have been so stressed out lately. It hasn't been because of one factor or another. However, perhaps the largest factor was my gaming group out in Kazoo. Simply put: I allowed for too much role-playing and not enough story. In many ways, there is was no reason why the game had to run as late as it did; I just enabled the group to monopolize my time. This is not to paint up the particulars involved as being "bad people"; opportunistic maybe, but that isn't a negative trait in and of itself. No, for my personal sanity (I don't want to hear one smart ass remark about the value sanity has) and personal health, I did not put myself first; I put others first. No one really stopped me from doing so, and I am not blaming/condemning/condoning such action. However, as an old Chinese saying goes, "Fool me eight times, shame on you. Fool me nine times, shame on me." I am not going to let that kind of stress get to me.
As to the people this concerns the most, "why didn't I call you about this or anything?" Well, it's difficult calling people and saying that you have been part of the reason I have been stressed lately and why I want to make a few changes during the summer. At this moment, I am not 100% sure what I want to do, let alone, what I am going to do. For one thing, gaming more than twice a week (whether I am a player or the GM) is simply f*%$ crazy. I don't care what anybody says about that; it's about time I stopped caring about things.
In any case, I am going to try and get things sorted out and handled. I need money and gaming too much has been taking time away from me trying to earn it.
On an aside note, I really hate f^&$^% munchkin, power gaming f%&*% tarts. They drive me nuts and will be glad if I can keep them away from me or promote change into something sensible and reasonable.
As to the people this concerns the most, "why didn't I call you about this or anything?" Well, it's difficult calling people and saying that you have been part of the reason I have been stressed lately and why I want to make a few changes during the summer. At this moment, I am not 100% sure what I want to do, let alone, what I am going to do. For one thing, gaming more than twice a week (whether I am a player or the GM) is simply f*%$ crazy. I don't care what anybody says about that; it's about time I stopped caring about things.
In any case, I am going to try and get things sorted out and handled. I need money and gaming too much has been taking time away from me trying to earn it.
On an aside note, I really hate f^&$^% munchkin, power gaming f%&*% tarts. They drive me nuts and will be glad if I can keep them away from me or promote change into something sensible and reasonable.