Negative
I don't know what I'm doing, but this is what I want to do.
Nothing is going my way anymore.
I was kicked out of the Yaoi/Yuri Forever and Yaoi/Yuri the RPG Galaxy MSN Groups because I'm too young. It's not fair just when I started feeling that I was actually making a difference, that some people may actually look up to me in any way.
I can't seem to concentrate on my fics anymore. I can't seem to write period. I can't do much writing homework and even just this is hard. The last even remotely good thing I wrote was my speech for Valedictorian and even then my teacher who forced everyone to write one even if we didn't even try to go for it, said it was too "negative".
My best-friend, someone who I trusted more then anyone else and who knew me better then he realized, hates me. I don't know why he does, maybe he thinks I don't trust him or maybe it's because I'm bi. It may even be because he's been trying so hard to be something he's not, that's he's become a jerk and just simply hates me.
To top things off my mom's dating again, don't get me wrong I'm happy for her. It's just the guy annoys me so much and I have this feeling that just makes me feel like I shouldn't trust him. Which I don't, he and his friends drink too much if you ask me.
I can't take it anymore. I need to get away, away from my school, away from my home. Just away from my life. It's not like people outside my family care.
They don't know me, they just know who I've shown them. The only person who knows who I am, hates me. I'm not who they think I am, nor am I who I once was. I have become someone I don't understand anymore.
But maybe it's better that way. One day I'll understand myself better, but until then I will remain confused.