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[long_lost_lover]

I cant even believe this. i get called out of the shower saying its urgent, and i hear brock say it and i cant believe it. i cant believe this i cant believe this. steve what the fuck what the fuck why couldnt you just pull through. why wasnt hope enough, i cant believe this. i want to cry but i cant, im numb. my body, its non-existant. steve, oh my god, we've had so many good times. ill never ever ever forget them. at matsons, fleeing from the cops. i feel into a pricker bush and you stopped to see if i was alright. i cant believe youre gone. in the barn, hahahahaa, soo great. i cant believe there will be no more, no more moments like that. steve, i remember seeing you the other day having shit with pat carrol, i remember your face perfectly.

carl, steve, youve left huge holes in a lot of peoples hearts. i cant believe this. im dreaming right, someone tell me im dreaming.