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I'm crawling out of my skin.
I feel like there is something inside that is just festering waiting to seep out of my pores.
I'm sick of the way I look.
I am so tired of being the same all of the time.
But, on the other hand, I'm so sick of feeling this way, but not having the balls to do something about.
Like, I could totally just chop my hair off, but I literally have a FEAR of having short hair.
It's crippling.
I could go get a piercing of some sort, but I am such a wuss that I never will.
I can't even look in the mirror anymore because it makes me so angry.
That's probably not healthy.
But, there are so many other things going on in my head that are far worse than just hating my hair.
And they only pop up once every few months.
The rest of the time, I just shove them out of the way.
But, jeeze.
I want to run a marathon right now just to get away from my head.
I feel like there is something inside that is just festering waiting to seep out of my pores.
I'm sick of the way I look.
I am so tired of being the same all of the time.
But, on the other hand, I'm so sick of feeling this way, but not having the balls to do something about.
Like, I could totally just chop my hair off, but I literally have a FEAR of having short hair.
It's crippling.
I could go get a piercing of some sort, but I am such a wuss that I never will.
I can't even look in the mirror anymore because it makes me so angry.
That's probably not healthy.
But, there are so many other things going on in my head that are far worse than just hating my hair.
And they only pop up once every few months.
The rest of the time, I just shove them out of the way.
But, jeeze.
I want to run a marathon right now just to get away from my head.