the mountain range in my living room moved out to my car....
so i guess smith didnt lose my app stuff b/c i checked my app stats on their website and it was all recieved feb.7th...even tho i overnighted it and they should have gotten it feb 1....i hate the post office. :(
i guess i should be happy that they called mrs.holtzer to ask why i failed contemporary issues. i mean, what a shitty reason to call, but at least that means they're considering my application and are mildly interested in me i guess.
im so nervous...i dont think anyone else gets this streesed over this business of college. i mean, im so stressed that ive become like a scatter brained moron and keep forgetting important things, like today when mr.b basically told me i was a failure b/c i didnt turn in an essay. i typed him up a sweet 2 1/2 pager in like 45 minutes, but i still just feel so upset that he said that...i mean, if mr.b considers me a failure, then what the hell have i been doing this year? i guess i could try harder, but i really feel like if i did i'd probably be depressed or something. i enjoy not worrying and just floating. but i guess theres always something that will get you in the end. i guess being relaxed has cost me my high place in mr. b's heart, and probably my admission to smith...whatever....i obviously dont belong there if im this lazy. i really think its just highschool teen angst shit tho...i mean, i hate school and i just get annoyed at stupid people so easily. outside of school im happy. i like being with my friends and just going to work, or sleeping(my new favorite passtime) i seriously cannot stop sleeping...i think i may have a disease....but school comes and its like 'noOOOO!' i mean, i was motivated for awhile....i had to go to english to see what happens next in Lear, but alas, we finished the play and it was a huge letdown.....damn. fuck you shakespeare.
i guess i should be happy that they called mrs.holtzer to ask why i failed contemporary issues. i mean, what a shitty reason to call, but at least that means they're considering my application and are mildly interested in me i guess.
im so nervous...i dont think anyone else gets this streesed over this business of college. i mean, im so stressed that ive become like a scatter brained moron and keep forgetting important things, like today when mr.b basically told me i was a failure b/c i didnt turn in an essay. i typed him up a sweet 2 1/2 pager in like 45 minutes, but i still just feel so upset that he said that...i mean, if mr.b considers me a failure, then what the hell have i been doing this year? i guess i could try harder, but i really feel like if i did i'd probably be depressed or something. i enjoy not worrying and just floating. but i guess theres always something that will get you in the end. i guess being relaxed has cost me my high place in mr. b's heart, and probably my admission to smith...whatever....i obviously dont belong there if im this lazy. i really think its just highschool teen angst shit tho...i mean, i hate school and i just get annoyed at stupid people so easily. outside of school im happy. i like being with my friends and just going to work, or sleeping(my new favorite passtime) i seriously cannot stop sleeping...i think i may have a disease....but school comes and its like 'noOOOO!' i mean, i was motivated for awhile....i had to go to english to see what happens next in Lear, but alas, we finished the play and it was a huge letdown.....damn. fuck you shakespeare.