I am sure you thought I was mot going to write you back. I did not knowif I wanted to for a while but after some talks with people here, they encouraged me that it was a good idea. They helped me see that if I did not respond that, that would not be fair to you. I know it must have been hard for you to express how you felt, or think you feel, and being vulnerable enough to ask me to do the same. Ironically last week right before you wrote me I was finally able say to myself that I was completely over you, but now that I am here thinking about you again I suppose I should express my feelings with you. You have asked me how I feel about you, and if I still love you, but I do ot even know how to answer that question when I do not know who you are.
From what I have understood and heard you are not the same girl that I was in love with 8 months ago. Hearing all this has broken my heart more than you could imagine. After you told me to stop sending letters and let go I finally realized that I actually had to move on and give my heart to God. I have been praying for you ever since and I will continue to pray for you. I pray that you restore your relationship with God if its lost because I know how badly he wants one with you. I pray that your heart is no longer broken but filled and healed by his love. I pray that you know that I had to leave the relationship not because I stopped loving you but because that I had to put God back in first place. And that his grace and love was the only thing that got me through that time. I still care about your heart very much. I know that deep down you are still that girl I loved, but because I do not know that girl anymore, I do not know what I would even love if I had love to give you.
From what I have understood and heard you are not the same girl that I was in love with 8 months ago. Hearing all this has broken my heart more than you could imagine. After you told me to stop sending letters and let go I finally realized that I actually had to move on and give my heart to God. I have been praying for you ever since and I will continue to pray for you. I pray that you restore your relationship with God if its lost because I know how badly he wants one with you. I pray that your heart is no longer broken but filled and healed by his love. I pray that you know that I had to leave the relationship not because I stopped loving you but because that I had to put God back in first place. And that his grace and love was the only thing that got me through that time. I still care about your heart very much. I know that deep down you are still that girl I loved, but because I do not know that girl anymore, I do not know what I would even love if I had love to give you.
I hope all is well with you.
Your friend,
Nathan
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