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[loneseraph]

so...

i am confused....

i sent him a message last night saying that i would like to be in contact with him, but i am worried that if we do start talking again things will get really hard and complicated. i was also very clear that i did not want to get back together but i did want to be his friend and be in some contact with him. i also clearly asked if he thought we could be just friends, no expectations, no pressure. (at least i thought i was very clear)

and he never responded.

but then he just sent me a text telling me thing bad that happened to him today.

wtf.

what does that mean?
is he willing to just be friends...? is he ignoring what i said...?

and what do i say to him now?
i want there to be a discussion about what our relationship is now, but i can understand if that doesnt happen right away. but i am just confused

and i also dont know if i made a mistake in opening up this door.
if i did i think that its my turn to learn from my own mistakes, i just feel like i cant tell anyone...

except you guys haha but i guess i dont really write here for feed back, its theraputic for me, especially when i dont feel like i can speak articulately about these issues

oh man oh man