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you know, i really do feel like i made the right decision.
i needed to be single for the first time.
i needed this time to be independant.
and i really didnt want to be in that relationship.
and i dont want to be in any relationship.
i dont feel like i need male attention.
but what i do miss is him as a friend.
i miss bring part of his life and being the first person to know everything that is going on with him. i miss being his confidant. he wasnt really that to me, and while i told him everything i also told everyone pretty much the same stuff. but it just breaks my heart not hearing about his boring day, or knowing how his work is going.
i really hope that he is ok. and its really hard knowing that i will probably never get to know if he is ok. because its not for me to know anymore. i am not his girlfriend. i am not his friend. i am not his confidant. and it breaks my heart
i needed to be single for the first time.
i needed this time to be independant.
and i really didnt want to be in that relationship.
and i dont want to be in any relationship.
i dont feel like i need male attention.
but what i do miss is him as a friend.
i miss bring part of his life and being the first person to know everything that is going on with him. i miss being his confidant. he wasnt really that to me, and while i told him everything i also told everyone pretty much the same stuff. but it just breaks my heart not hearing about his boring day, or knowing how his work is going.
i really hope that he is ok. and its really hard knowing that i will probably never get to know if he is ok. because its not for me to know anymore. i am not his girlfriend. i am not his friend. i am not his confidant. and it breaks my heart