Dancing, Hang-overs, and Feeling like an Idiot.
Last night was interesting, going to the club Subzero with Adam, Lauren, Justin, Caren, Jamie, and myself. I will admit I had fun, but dancing is still something that isn't easy for me. I am still to rigid and un-able to let go. Like my feelings I have a expressing myself. It's as if I am afraid of showing others who I am.... of course sometimes I feel like I don't even know who I am.
It's hard for me to show others my heart, I don't think I have fully opened myself to anyone. In a way I wonder if I can trust anyone fully. I realize that i am still to inexperienced with my expressing feelings and in that I feel that I shouldn't fall in love again. I feel so immature in it and that I will throw my heart around to carelessly if I am not careful. I expect to be alone for a long time and it would be best this way, rather then trying to find love in everything around me. One day I will find her and she will love me for all my faults and strengths.
I am gonna go, I still got a mild hangover.............
perhaps I need a hair of the dog that bit me. Peace out.
It's hard for me to show others my heart, I don't think I have fully opened myself to anyone. In a way I wonder if I can trust anyone fully. I realize that i am still to inexperienced with my expressing feelings and in that I feel that I shouldn't fall in love again. I feel so immature in it and that I will throw my heart around to carelessly if I am not careful. I expect to be alone for a long time and it would be best this way, rather then trying to find love in everything around me. One day I will find her and she will love me for all my faults and strengths.
I am gonna go, I still got a mild hangover.............
perhaps I need a hair of the dog that bit me. Peace out.