Relative Measurements of Time
I stayed up all night again. Being back at home almost always seems to guarantee that my sleep schedule is going to be seriously f'ed with. I don't know. I think I'm starting to get into the totally skewed and clearly erroneous mindset that I don't much like sleeping at night...or at all. I find that I'm especially unwilling (yes, unwilling) to go to sleep at night. I have no real idea why, either. Naps during the day, I'm fine with those. If I stay up late, I have no qualms about sleeping in. But going to bed when everyone else in the house does? I just can't get myself to do that. It's a crazy thing, really.
Then again, I did sleep practically all day yesterday (today?). I can't even tell the difference between days anymore. Just because there's light and then there's dark doesn't necessarily mean that a definitive measurement of time must have passed for everyone. People go to sleep in the dark, wake up near the light, and it's a new start for them. New day, that's what it's called. Not for me, I guess. One day lasts a few periods of light and dark, and eventually, gradually, I left my guard fall enough for my body to be caught resting.
I can't believe this. I need to be normal already. Maybe I can get an hour or so in before Jess comes in to wake me up around eight. I think that may be it...I have so much trouble waking up, so I try to help that by not having to wake up by always being awake.
Good...night...?
"...It's Biblical how fucked my sleep can be..."
Then again, I did sleep practically all day yesterday (today?). I can't even tell the difference between days anymore. Just because there's light and then there's dark doesn't necessarily mean that a definitive measurement of time must have passed for everyone. People go to sleep in the dark, wake up near the light, and it's a new start for them. New day, that's what it's called. Not for me, I guess. One day lasts a few periods of light and dark, and eventually, gradually, I left my guard fall enough for my body to be caught resting.
I can't believe this. I need to be normal already. Maybe I can get an hour or so in before Jess comes in to wake me up around eight. I think that may be it...I have so much trouble waking up, so I try to help that by not having to wake up by always being awake.
Good...night...?
"...It's Biblical how fucked my sleep can be..."