Finally the day hath arrived.....
After close to 3 months of waiting I have finally gotten an appointment for the 25th of Feb. Well it is close to a month away but for me its worth it. After waiting so long and going through two appointments, constant phone calls, writing a letter, going through the screening and loads and loads of waiting in the dark I finally get to see the doctor. This is by no means any less than meeting God himself. I might just as much touch his feet and start stripping at his command if things come to that.
Yes, after 22 years of gradual intellectual development, I have reached this peak of finally defining myself, my problems and finding out a possible solution to it all.
For me this is an amazing news. But then its tough to explain it to people, cause most people never get it. Many think that im going to the Doctor now cause im struggling with my course work at the moment. Well im not really struggling, in fact Im doing quite well. So hence they figure that Im going in for a quick fix solution to my 'studies' problem and hence they find it hard to understand when i tell them, cause they might feel that even since they are struggling in their studies, why cant even they just get diagnosed with something and pop a pill to solve everything. Well quite frankly this attitude hurts me. If im going to the doctor today its cause since the past 5 years I have planned and waited for this day to happen. Its not something I decided in one delusional day. It took me years of realisation, years of denial by everyone around me, years of reading and finding material to finally get here. I believe I deserve this, and if anyone looks at it otherwise like a lucky fluke or an attempt by me to escape my situation while they slither in pain, im sorry to burst your little bubble, but i have paid the price of my childhood schooling and countless punishments from parents and teachers cause they never saw it in their jobs to find out if i did in fact suffer from any form of Learning Disorder or not. Many people around me still live in denial about it. Well screw them, im finally setting a year of depression, four years of running around and my whole life time of insults from everyone around me into some form of a solution.
I deserve this, and i deserve to be happy, and i have reached here with no ones help, and i dont need any.
Wow! Ranting Helps :D feel much better now!
Yes, after 22 years of gradual intellectual development, I have reached this peak of finally defining myself, my problems and finding out a possible solution to it all.
For me this is an amazing news. But then its tough to explain it to people, cause most people never get it. Many think that im going to the Doctor now cause im struggling with my course work at the moment. Well im not really struggling, in fact Im doing quite well. So hence they figure that Im going in for a quick fix solution to my 'studies' problem and hence they find it hard to understand when i tell them, cause they might feel that even since they are struggling in their studies, why cant even they just get diagnosed with something and pop a pill to solve everything. Well quite frankly this attitude hurts me. If im going to the doctor today its cause since the past 5 years I have planned and waited for this day to happen. Its not something I decided in one delusional day. It took me years of realisation, years of denial by everyone around me, years of reading and finding material to finally get here. I believe I deserve this, and if anyone looks at it otherwise like a lucky fluke or an attempt by me to escape my situation while they slither in pain, im sorry to burst your little bubble, but i have paid the price of my childhood schooling and countless punishments from parents and teachers cause they never saw it in their jobs to find out if i did in fact suffer from any form of Learning Disorder or not. Many people around me still live in denial about it. Well screw them, im finally setting a year of depression, four years of running around and my whole life time of insults from everyone around me into some form of a solution.
I deserve this, and i deserve to be happy, and i have reached here with no ones help, and i dont need any.
Wow! Ranting Helps :D feel much better now!