Being on top is lonely..

[lonerangers]

I'm on the fast track.. I'm the head of my company, we're finally starting to make profit.. my dream is starting to come into a reality but for some reason..

I feel alone on the top of this mountain.. maybe I'm starting to slip back into my depression. Maybe it's all the start from my regular job and this new career move.. I'm fighting it soo much for it to not hit me b/c I don't wanna slip back into it. I remember who I was back in High School w/ my bi-polarness and I don't wanna go back-- I lost soo much time and so many people thanks to that awful inbalance. I'm honestly afraid.. I keep telling myself that I'm stronger then I was back in high school.. I'm a man now, not a boy..

I have too many people relying on me for me to slip back.. I can't let them all down.. I can't let anyone else be burden by my problems b/c they all have their own issues to deal with..

I keep telling myself.. "I'm Furby, Everything rolls off me.." but it doesn't work anymore..

Just everything going on w/ Pixie and Vortexx and life in general.. it's just too much.. I wanna run away and hide.. I wanna stop being able to hear that voice of doubt and dread in my mind.

I dn't know how much more i can take...