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i constantly feel myself distancing myself away from people that are close to me. i don't understand why i feel so scared to be close to people anymore. i've always had trust problems, but its like i just want to be away from people that i care about and i don't know why. it's crazy because a lot of people love me, like the barn people and my school friends and stuff, but i've never felt so alone in all my life and i do this to myself. i never feel comfortable and i go and hide at nick's house. it's odd. i have no idea why i do the things i do anymore. maybe i just need to chill for awhile.