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[lonelysun]

i'm at my parent's right now.. i was walking down my road its fucking beautiful. warm summer night.. quiet except for the crickets and the sound of the cool breeze rustling through the leaves.. no cars.. the street lights that for some reason i have always loved. sitting on the curb barefoot underneath one smoking a cigarette. made me really happy and nostalgic and grateful. i've been clean about 9 1/2 months. i don't have to post an entry every few months detailing all the shit i've gotten myself into anymore.. its beautiful. i'm living close to the shore.. i have some really close friends from NA and a sponsor and i'm working on the 12 steps. and i'm not sticking a needle in my arm and spending every waking moment trying to steal something. sure i've got drug court to deal with, and about $4500 in fines to pay, but i'm not dopesick, i'm not in prison, and life is pretty alright for a change.

i feel all serene and content and shit right now haha