I've never hated anyone more

[lonelystudent]

I've never hated anyone more than I do you today, not even my mother. You were the only one that every really cared and now you don't. I'm left here by myself to deal with all this shit by myself and you don't give a fuck all you can say is whatever and as I sit here and cry until I'm throwing up all you're doing is enjoying your night with your friends well you know what I hate you because I love you and all you do is hurt me. You've lied to me telling me all of the things you knew I needed to hear telling me you'd always be there and you're not. Telling me you'd do anything when all you do is nothing. I can't do this I am not in a position to handle this right now. I needed you needed the stability you brought me and now what do I have me myself and I. Oh and the fucking colleagues from all these fucking organizations that I'm apart of that take all my time away from you. I don't have anyone I can call and talk to no one there who wants to be with me for me. You were that person and you just said fuck it. My few "friends" are too busy for me or too tired of my shit with you and I've lost it all and I can't do it anymore I hate you if I tell myself that enough maybe I will believe it.

I hate the way you talk to me
and the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car;
I hate it when you stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme.
I hate it -- I hate the way you're always right;
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh;
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around
and the fact that you didn't call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you --
not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.