Why do we always want the bad guy?
I've been asking myself this for a long time.Why,when there's a lot of good nice girls or boys,depends on the case,out there,we like the bad guys the most.We like to know that we are dating someone that will try to win every fight,and that at the end they win,because we let them,99% of the time.I wish I was one of those,but saddly in the good one.It's hard to meet someone into good girls or good guys.I think that's why I have been single so long.And the thruth is I like the bad guys,at least in my eyes,but they are also looking for bad guys.I would like to be a bad girl,but I'm the kind of girl that cries cuz she's dumping someone...for being too good for me.I remember the first girl I liked.She was a tall bloned,blue eyed girl.I don't know what was the first thing caught my attention about her,wheter was the she was the most hot and sexy girls I have ever saw,or the fact she was as in love as I was with Gillian Anderson.We had a drama class together at 7am.I'm a person that loves to sleep,but I would get up at 5am,just to be sure to park right next to her.She told me she had a girlfriend,but she would flirt with me all the time.I was her little proyect as I see it now.I wasn't even out to myself and she took me under her wing.I learned a lot with her,mainly not to fall in love with someone you shouldn't and that I was such a soft nice girl.Then my metal goddess came.Long black hair,so into Marilyn Manson and into tattoos.She has horrible ones.Skulls,dwarfs...But inside she was much more of a softy as I was,even more.We used to spend time in my car after she was out of her shift in a pharmacy she used to wrk.And she wouldn't even touch my hair.We would talk and talk,and nothing would happen.She would just kiss me.So After a whileI got tired of her,and we parted our ways.The professor was the best one.She was such a bad girl that she dumped me on Valentine's.Maybe she was just cruel,so I won't say much about her.Just that my bestfriend thinks she look like Harry Potter in 40 years with a huge addiction to crack.See,no point on writting about her.Then the politics student.Such a big brain.It was a mess.I was too good for her.She was too bad for me.But what a passion.She can still turn me on with just a look.And I know I can do the same thing to her.We are just such a big sexual combination,that it wouldn't work anyway.We spent too much time in bed,or in my car,or her car...
Then of course I found a vegan.I think you are not a complete lesbian until you date a vegan,if you are not one.I'm a meattatarian,so I think that too much red meat can make you be a bitch and an asshole when confronted with someone with low counts of red meat in her system.She was too good for me.Then the friend of the ex.I thought I would never do that one,but I did.Well,I didn't,cuz we are just friends.It's just so wierd.One week everything was okay,and then she wants to take her time and have fun with her friends,but she calls every night.To see what I'm doing,even thou "you are too good" and she doesn't want to hurt me.
I think it is so not fair.Neither for the good guys nor the bad guys.Why do we have to lable everything and just be rule by this.What if that too good of a person is our ideal match?Why can people just be them and don't freak out by the reality that people at the end are mostly good,even the bad guys.We just all nedd to chill out and just let things happen.I hate so much when people say to me "I like you so much" in the tone.I feel like a little pound puppy.Oh you are so cute,but I can't take you home,I'm looking for a Great Dane.Relationships are so hard.My friend tells me not to over think things,but I just can't.
Then of course I found a vegan.I think you are not a complete lesbian until you date a vegan,if you are not one.I'm a meattatarian,so I think that too much red meat can make you be a bitch and an asshole when confronted with someone with low counts of red meat in her system.She was too good for me.Then the friend of the ex.I thought I would never do that one,but I did.Well,I didn't,cuz we are just friends.It's just so wierd.One week everything was okay,and then she wants to take her time and have fun with her friends,but she calls every night.To see what I'm doing,even thou "you are too good" and she doesn't want to hurt me.
I think it is so not fair.Neither for the good guys nor the bad guys.Why do we have to lable everything and just be rule by this.What if that too good of a person is our ideal match?Why can people just be them and don't freak out by the reality that people at the end are mostly good,even the bad guys.We just all nedd to chill out and just let things happen.I hate so much when people say to me "I like you so much" in the tone.I feel like a little pound puppy.Oh you are so cute,but I can't take you home,I'm looking for a Great Dane.Relationships are so hard.My friend tells me not to over think things,but I just can't.