So Long I've Been...
So Long I’ve Been...
Avoiding writing a blog, but well there's too much to keep bundling up in my head... It's one of the few nights where I am completely alone in my house and well as nerve racking and annoying as it is, its peaceful to be able to sit down and wrte my thoughts with no worries of who is reading being my back...
So I guess I'll start off with June and move my way to now month by month.
June
Got a New Tat.Went to Paris. Nothing too eventful happened. Turned 20 in a bar where I was legal to be drinking. Saw the things I've dream't about for 15 years of my life.
July
Nothing too exciting there either. Still in Paris. Had an Allergic reaction on Bastille Day. Came home. Girlie died next day. Spent some of the best times of my life with Lo and Tiff as always... Missed Joe like a Mofo... Edited my tat, got my Felix tat...
August
Came back to Colorado. And then the fun started. Led a NSO Trip and got into some trouble
September
Got kicked out of school because of the shit that happened on NSO.
So all of that leads up to now. Since I've been out of school I've grown up a lot because I had to. But I'm not the person I used to be. Nothing in life makes me happy anymore. I get so depressed that the horrible people I talk to all day on hte phone(Im a surveyor) make me cry. And when I come home I have to deal with roommates with no common courtesy to do anything around the house, even leave me enough of the dinner I prepared for them for Joe and I to eat. And then I have to deal with things that bother Joe that he never seems to explain. And In the end I jsut want to go to bed and die in my sleep. All my mom has been doing is making me feel like shit for making one obvious mistake in my life and it hurts a lot because I'm homesick but how she treats me makes me not want to ever go back. I wanted to go back for a while, but Joe wont come with me... I'm so confused on what to do. I jsut want my old life back.