maybe its better
i dont know anymore i give yup u can only love and deal withsomeones stupid shit for so long before u either explode or give up i lov corey to death but i dot know if i wanna go back to him its only gonna happen again he doesnt kno how to just love and want me but has to go out and want every other chick well fuck him yup i feel like a fucking sex toy everytime i go over the same thing happens i wake him but we talk for like 10 20 min then he goes takes a shower and thenm we have sex and then hes on the comp forever talking to jess and then he goes to bed and leaves me later woudnt u feel like a sex toy im the stupid one thought for sticking around i walked away once and the came back b/c i thought itd be different but it ant different its the same and now i try to walk away agian and i cant its to heard i dont kno wat to do he tell me he loves me and wants to be with me but if that so then why wont he be w me now or why is he this way with me and jess its either me or her thats gonna get hert brcaiuse he keeps leading us both on today i told hi i couldnt tell if he love me and that i didnt feel like i meant anything to hima nd he got sad and told me he loved me more then anything and i was the most important person to him i dont if thats true i want it to be and hope it is but i dunno. i was so mad today he was just like yeah im going to daves house to drink and hang out with jess which he does every fucking day i dont get it maybe im just a fucking horriable person that needs to go any for everor something i dk maybe when i get back from campiing evrything will be better and he'll act like he lvoes me instead of a sex toy