lonely
i dont know what has been with me but ive been really sad and upset for the past couple of days and it sucks wicked bad beccause i dont like it i mean i dk i wanna be happy and im happy most of the time but idk i just am so tired of being alone it isnt fun like i havent someone to hold me and act like they cared in so long that it sucks and im just craving it. i just want a guy to hug and kiss is that so hardd im mean yeah im having a baby so what guys see that as oh no to much cumitment and shit and dont wanna have to deal w more responsablitly but i dont even want a guy for my son i just want a guy for me some one to hug me and tell me im great and to be there when i need them why is that so hard to get i mean i dk i hate this i hate every one sometimes i dk maybe im better off with out a guty and on my own idk i think im never gonna have a guy i dk its stupid but most guys arent my type b/c alot of them are stupid and annoying amd i cant stasnd most of them any ways theres a few i could torelate as a boyfriend but w.e idk i guess i just miss the hole feeling like im loved consept idk