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soooo much to say... wow.. its been a really bad day, it started out great.. then just wasnt so great... i went to target today, with my sister... i got some eyeliner,flipflops,the ganier frutuis spray gel stuff,and baby lotion... i was happy cause i was all out of lotion and my eyeliner broke at the mall hah.. but then i was in the car and i was just talking to amber and on the ride home we didnt say much, she just brought up the fact that zachary, my cousin, and my great grandpa russ, were both having surgery today..and then the fact that thid lady who has known my mom since she was born, who is like a grandma to me, is also in the hospital, but with anominia,.. first off, my little cousin, zach, he didnt even HAVE to have surgery. but his mom thought he should. because she wants him to live on a feeding tube the rest of his life. and i hate that, i hate that my uncle didnt do anything to stop her, zach can eat all by himself, .. it just makes me think hes going to die sooner.. he has sistic fibrosis, which is a termal desease that makes him sick alot, and most people who have it dont live very long, my sisters good friend krystle had it, and she passed away last year at 20.. it makes you really skinny, and i hate talking about it cause it makes me cry, i love that boy so much.. hes so sweet.. he deserves a long healthy life..and as for my great grandma russ, well i dont reallly feel anything about it, i mean im sad about it, but not really for me, i never really knew the guy.. only met him acouple times.. but my gradpa just lost his mom in febuary, i just pray he doesnt die now, not so close.. papa doesnt need that right now.. oh my im going to stop talking about all of this making me very depressed.. but anyways, im going to go swimming in about an hour .. so that should be fun.. get my mind off these things and everything else on my mind.. oh and, i need a diet .. hmm.. i dont really know if this is going to make sine when you read it if you read it.. my mind is all over the place.. but ya.. i dont want to go to high school, i dont want to go to school..i haaaate it...bye