and it seems so long ago that I used to believe..
I just went through the majority of the notes that I kept from 5th grade on and it really makes me laugh how small our problems were. In retrospect, I'm sure they were catastrophic at the time, but really, not having a date to the 8th grade dance? ha, I wish that was my problem.
Over spring break I had to put my childhood into boxes. I'm pretty sure it's one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I no longer have a home in Orlando.
People really amaze me. How oblivious they are, or if not, how little they actually care.
I can't wait until April 1st. We will have our own apartment and I couldn't be more excited. But what I really need is Nicolle to be here perminately. My life isn't as exciting and I'm never in as good as a mood as I am with her.
I'm starting to think I'm destined to be lonely. A whole year and not one boy? Really? Well none that really ended up meaning anything in the end, at least. I've been kinda talking to this one kid, but hes too innocent for me. Those are the ones I attract and I don't understand, I'm not as good of a girl as I seem. Maybe summer? Blah, that's all I ever do is push back the time that something good will happen to me, perhaps sometime between now and never. Yeah that's about right.
Life plays so many games inside of me
and I've had some distant cries, following
and their entwined between the night and sun beams
I wish I were free from this pain in me
Over spring break I had to put my childhood into boxes. I'm pretty sure it's one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I no longer have a home in Orlando.
People really amaze me. How oblivious they are, or if not, how little they actually care.
I can't wait until April 1st. We will have our own apartment and I couldn't be more excited. But what I really need is Nicolle to be here perminately. My life isn't as exciting and I'm never in as good as a mood as I am with her.
I'm starting to think I'm destined to be lonely. A whole year and not one boy? Really? Well none that really ended up meaning anything in the end, at least. I've been kinda talking to this one kid, but hes too innocent for me. Those are the ones I attract and I don't understand, I'm not as good of a girl as I seem. Maybe summer? Blah, that's all I ever do is push back the time that something good will happen to me, perhaps sometime between now and never. Yeah that's about right.
Life plays so many games inside of me
and I've had some distant cries, following
and their entwined between the night and sun beams
I wish I were free from this pain in me