Deep emotional struggle with myself inside myself
T_T I feel like I'm suddenly a magnet, actracting whatnot. Don't get me wrong. It's something I don't really want - though I will want it - and something random. I'm not making sense so ignore me. I'm referring to males ofcourse XD
" TWO TENDER THOUGHTS AND THE FIRE "
" Why would I do this to my own self?
How would I do this to my own self?
How could I do this to my own self?
Why could I do this to my ownself?
I've lost someone I miss terribly
I was on my way knowing someone like me
The the impact burned; patience will dissappeare?
It can't, sacrifice a tear;
Is she better this way?
Is she better this way?
I don't lust the warmth.
I'll tell myself to ignore the warmth
Every minute, every second, every hour, everyday;
Otherwise I'll burn myself and I'll know I'm the one to blame
I'll scream, yell & shout mentally
I must; Let noone see me;
I don't want to betray myself .. why could I?
I want him
"bolden the wall between the two ..." feels awkward thy written - why & how?
- thy melody seems so emotionless now;"
I desire more than advisery
I'm not a student (in need of help) so don't teach me!
I know enough for my well being
I'm older than my self-seeing;
I've received my wish
For a year - now it's gone
I was on my way knowing him
- see there's simplicity between -
Still, hope lingered in my heart
Then fire burned
The hope shattered, into nothingness turned
I've fallen in my own trap - the smallest gap - what have I got? "
People say I write TOO DEEP things. And that they don't really understand it. Okay, this prolly isn't that way. My mood changes every second - so does my style, vocabulary, spirit, opinion, wishes, aspirations, etc.; for 'deep' poetry, check my site out.
http://rose.eternal-calm.net [directly to the poetry section:] http://rose.eternal-calm.net/creative/poetry.htm - choose and read =3 Just flame/insult me once and you'll permanently be on a blacklist ~.~
Anyway, the 'fansite' [below entry] is: Kurama x Botan. I'll give a link when it's up - which will be later sometime. A preview can be seen here http://geocities.com/silenceofadream/
Note: the above poetry -- two tender thoughts. [#1 tender thought - him, #2 tender thought - my best friend {"is she better this way?"}].
" TWO TENDER THOUGHTS AND THE FIRE "
" Why would I do this to my own self?
How would I do this to my own self?
How could I do this to my own self?
Why could I do this to my ownself?
I've lost someone I miss terribly
I was on my way knowing someone like me
The the impact burned; patience will dissappeare?
It can't, sacrifice a tear;
Is she better this way?
Is she better this way?
I don't lust the warmth.
I'll tell myself to ignore the warmth
Every minute, every second, every hour, everyday;
Otherwise I'll burn myself and I'll know I'm the one to blame
I'll scream, yell & shout mentally
I must; Let noone see me;
I don't want to betray myself .. why could I?
I want him
"bolden the wall between the two ..." feels awkward thy written - why & how?
- thy melody seems so emotionless now;"
I desire more than advisery
I'm not a student (in need of help) so don't teach me!
I know enough for my well being
I'm older than my self-seeing;
I've received my wish
For a year - now it's gone
I was on my way knowing him
- see there's simplicity between -
Still, hope lingered in my heart
Then fire burned
The hope shattered, into nothingness turned
I've fallen in my own trap - the smallest gap - what have I got? "
People say I write TOO DEEP things. And that they don't really understand it. Okay, this prolly isn't that way. My mood changes every second - so does my style, vocabulary, spirit, opinion, wishes, aspirations, etc.; for 'deep' poetry, check my site out.
http://rose.eternal-calm.net [directly to the poetry section:] http://rose.eternal-calm.net/creative/poetry.htm - choose and read =3 Just flame/insult me once and you'll permanently be on a blacklist ~.~
Anyway, the 'fansite' [below entry] is: Kurama x Botan. I'll give a link when it's up - which will be later sometime. A preview can be seen here http://geocities.com/silenceofadream/
Note: the above poetry -- two tender thoughts. [#1 tender thought - him, #2 tender thought - my best friend {"is she better this way?"}].