Deep in my head
You can have the love and the support of a hundred people behind you, so even if you do fall someone will cetch u. You can been lucky to find the love of your life, and everything you ever wanted, but u still feel pointless, useless, like you have no purpose. Why cant one day go by where we dont have feel afraid of anything of anyone. Its not the present, and its not the hope or thoughts of a good future. its your past, the memories that make you who are, the memories that no matter how much u try to forget, it just cant be forgotten. I remember the day my life changed forever, the day my father first put me in the hospital, i never felt so alone, so hurt. I thought how can someone who is meant to love and protect me, can cause me so much harm and misery. Its this memories of my family, my failed relationships/friendships that make me who i am. Im just one of the many regrets that curse the world, the ones that will never succeed because we were never given the chance to. Its my memories i cant forget, i wish i could sometimes, just forget and get over it. But i just dont see the point, like life isnt about finding ur soul mate, its not about graduating and succeeding, its not about making something of yourself, lifes only about dying and all the pain u will suffer during ur short time on earth. Its the only thing ur meant to do, its fucked i know, but its life. Ill never be my parents perfect girl, cause im a mistake, this ive been told. Fucked i know. We will see what lies for me in the future, if i even have one.