Thinking is just too much to handle sometimes.
well school started! that's pretty exciting! I like all my classes so far, and all my teachers are really nice. I'm still getting use to the new schedule and work. It's a little hard, and I might need to quit my job because I need to do homework and the days where I should be getting it done, I'm not because of work. So I don't know where thats going to go.
On another note, Frank and I have been back together since a couple of days before Christmas. It's been really nice, but we've had our rough spots trying to get comfortable with eachother again. Sometimes I can't let things go, and most of the time he's a dickhead. I hate when I have to question us being together or not. I hate it more than anything, but the way he talks to me sometimes I just want to walk away for good. I was watching Charmed and Pheobe said something that made perfect sense. "We just need to realize we are not going to work, after all the times we've tried over and over again, it just won't. We just weren't meant to be. And it's not because we didn't love eachother, it's just love wasn't enough."
And even though I'm going to love him for the rest of my life, I sometimes wonder if our love is enough. Is it enough to deal with all the crap we put ourselves through? And the fact that it's all happening within a month of us getting back together isn't a good sign. I don't know, I just don't know if all of the pain and heartache we put eachother through is really worth it. I love him, but will it be enough? These things I'm constantly thinking about, it's like my mind won't let myself be happy. I think things too thoroughly and analyze too much. I need to learn how to stop that.
And learn some time management. That's a must.
On another note, Frank and I have been back together since a couple of days before Christmas. It's been really nice, but we've had our rough spots trying to get comfortable with eachother again. Sometimes I can't let things go, and most of the time he's a dickhead. I hate when I have to question us being together or not. I hate it more than anything, but the way he talks to me sometimes I just want to walk away for good. I was watching Charmed and Pheobe said something that made perfect sense. "We just need to realize we are not going to work, after all the times we've tried over and over again, it just won't. We just weren't meant to be. And it's not because we didn't love eachother, it's just love wasn't enough."
And even though I'm going to love him for the rest of my life, I sometimes wonder if our love is enough. Is it enough to deal with all the crap we put ourselves through? And the fact that it's all happening within a month of us getting back together isn't a good sign. I don't know, I just don't know if all of the pain and heartache we put eachother through is really worth it. I love him, but will it be enough? These things I'm constantly thinking about, it's like my mind won't let myself be happy. I think things too thoroughly and analyze too much. I need to learn how to stop that.
And learn some time management. That's a must.