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[lonelyfreak]

Well... its over now, i really wish it werent, quite frankly i thought you were acting pretty childish.. i think its kinda unfair to tell your girlfriend they cant talk to a friend, yah me and zach have been through alot... but im not going to go back to him, i was too hurt in that relationship, i WONT go back to it. and i tryed so hard for almost 2 years to keep this relationship going but all you've done was try to find loop holes of making it not work, i cant tell you how many times i've sat and cried in my bed at night jus thinking of all the hurtfull things you've said to me.. Today we would have been engaged for a year. Ya know all i really wanted was things to go back to how they were with us.. everything was perfect, no fighting, no jealousy, no... nothing.. ya know? but obviously, that couldnt happen... Your Jealousy over Zach has no point, i look for nothing but a friend with Zach... ya know i've lost so much in my life for you... i almost lost everything i had for you... yet i dont want this relationship to work... right? bullshit So i guess this is it... this is goodbye AGAIN.. im sorry you couldnt have been around more in our relationship.. you have to understand i need you there for me... and your not everytime you've needed me i've been there to talk to you or even a sholder to cry on... yet everytime i needed you... nobody knew where you were... you werent at home.. NO.. you were in fuckin houston ruining your life.. i think you were only there for me once.. and then you thought i was lying about it all. and thats bullshit. You wouldnt let me be there for you, i've tryed n' tryed to be there.. and i can only remember you coming to me a couple.. Like when your Grandfather passed away, you didnt come to me.. You went to Jeska, i felt so uncomfortable at the rosery seeing how You n' her were togather. that hurt me so bad, cuz i felt like i shouldnt have been there... almost like you didnt want me there. you told her she could go to the funeral with you.. but to me it was a big fat NO. I thought you loved me? what happen to that?... where have we let our relationship go? obviously right down the drain, i cant do this anymore. If you love me, be with me, i didnt do anything wrong but talk to somebody you didnt want me do. when i thought you had already broke up with me. What am i suppose to do.. stay friendless all my life for a guy thats never around? im sorry... but no.. im out of here
I Love You David
~*~Tish~*~