Love, rain, and fireworks...
And so my boys came up to visit Hannah and me. It was alot of fun, despite my extreme moodiness throughout the weekend. I was quite worried I'd lose Hannah and Graham as my friends now that they've found each other, but we all talked and things are better now. We had a cookout, a water battle, singing, dancing, games... it was a pretty good time, but all good things have to end...bringing me to last night.
I had to work from 3:45 to 11, and Hannah took me to work because we had the same shift. Adam offered to pick me up afterwards. We ended up finishing early, and we headed to my house at 10:30. We get there and both of the boys are gone, as well as Adam's car. It was pouring down rain, and thundering and lightning out like crazy, so immediately I worry about where they are. We figured maybe they weren't back from Selinsgrove yet (they went there while we were working) and so we called them both several times and they werent there. So we worry more. Finally, we decide one of us should go find them. So I offer to go even though I'm really not supposed to drive at night. I really didn't want Hannah to go because of being a new driver and not having alot of rain experience yet, so I took a deep breath and went. I'm driving 50 mph in the pouring rain, I can't see much beyond my headlights...I can't really see the road and all of a sudden, I do something I hadn't done in a long time-I start to pray. Not to anyone in particular, but to anyone that was listening. I was so scared something had happened to my friends, one of them being my boyfriend...I just didn't know what to do. So I ask for guidance and make it to the camp, park the car and call them again...no answer. So I get out, it's pouring really hard by now, and I start to cry as I look for them.I don't see their car anywhere and after about 10 minutes I'm really really scared. I look up at the sky and I shiver, I've always been afraid of lightning...tears and rain are running down my face and I realize just how much I love my friends, and especially how much I truly love Adam...I faced my fears and risked my life to find my boys. Then I looked ahead and saw two rain drenched figures walking towards me. I buried myself in Adam's arms and just let it all out. I didn't want to let him go. The memory of the two of us, soaking wet, shivering and cold, clinging to each other in the midst of the storm will never leave me. I'd never felt more relief. We drove home, and I was too shaken up to drive anymore, so Graham took Adam's car and we went back to my house. In 5 minutes we were all dripping wet and teary eyed in my living room.
And so they left today. I spent the night in his arms, I felt so safe and loved. I sobbed this morning, begging him not to go, but of course they had to. There wasn't one dry eye in my house when they left.
You never know how much you care about someone, how close they are to your heart, until they've left you behind.
Those are my thoughts.
For now.
Nicole <3
I had to work from 3:45 to 11, and Hannah took me to work because we had the same shift. Adam offered to pick me up afterwards. We ended up finishing early, and we headed to my house at 10:30. We get there and both of the boys are gone, as well as Adam's car. It was pouring down rain, and thundering and lightning out like crazy, so immediately I worry about where they are. We figured maybe they weren't back from Selinsgrove yet (they went there while we were working) and so we called them both several times and they werent there. So we worry more. Finally, we decide one of us should go find them. So I offer to go even though I'm really not supposed to drive at night. I really didn't want Hannah to go because of being a new driver and not having alot of rain experience yet, so I took a deep breath and went. I'm driving 50 mph in the pouring rain, I can't see much beyond my headlights...I can't really see the road and all of a sudden, I do something I hadn't done in a long time-I start to pray. Not to anyone in particular, but to anyone that was listening. I was so scared something had happened to my friends, one of them being my boyfriend...I just didn't know what to do. So I ask for guidance and make it to the camp, park the car and call them again...no answer. So I get out, it's pouring really hard by now, and I start to cry as I look for them.I don't see their car anywhere and after about 10 minutes I'm really really scared. I look up at the sky and I shiver, I've always been afraid of lightning...tears and rain are running down my face and I realize just how much I love my friends, and especially how much I truly love Adam...I faced my fears and risked my life to find my boys. Then I looked ahead and saw two rain drenched figures walking towards me. I buried myself in Adam's arms and just let it all out. I didn't want to let him go. The memory of the two of us, soaking wet, shivering and cold, clinging to each other in the midst of the storm will never leave me. I'd never felt more relief. We drove home, and I was too shaken up to drive anymore, so Graham took Adam's car and we went back to my house. In 5 minutes we were all dripping wet and teary eyed in my living room.
And so they left today. I spent the night in his arms, I felt so safe and loved. I sobbed this morning, begging him not to go, but of course they had to. There wasn't one dry eye in my house when they left.
You never know how much you care about someone, how close they are to your heart, until they've left you behind.
Those are my thoughts.
For now.
Nicole <3