May 10, 2006 10:01
the past week has been CRAZY! the helicopter crash in afghanistan has really impacted a lot of people around the country. ruth called me sunday and told me to contact all of my ladies in the FRG informing them about the crash and to reassure them that our husbands were not involved. sometimes i feel so guilty because i am so relieved that it wasn't my husband. i can't even imagine what it would be like to have to tell your children that daddy isn't coming home. and i can't even imagine not being able to see josh again. sometimes i don't even know how i make it as an army wife. to have to go over a month without talking to my husband. and to have to go for a year at a time without seeing him. either i'm stronger than i think or god is really watching out for me.
it's funny how little things can really make your day. ruth forwarded me an email she received from clint. in it he typed this: "A quote from Smith as we were climbing a mountain, 'Right now we are the hardest men alive.'" i read that sentence and i just cried and cried. just seeing my husband's name made everything ok and i knew he was safe. this deployment is so much more lonely than any other deployment we have been through. but i have to hang in there. on the bright side- josh will be home very shortly after trent is born! i was a little concerned at first because he's coming home so early in the deployment but now i can't wait!