You are you, && am I, && if we end up together its beautiful
Hi. I haven't updated this thing in a while.
I think im gonna start again.
Summer's almost over. I'm kinda of happy, don't get me wrong. summer was amazing and i had so much fun. But i wanna go back to school. I wanna see everyone i haven't seen. AND it's senior year, so hopefully it will be crazy, with no drama?
So i've been working alot. But i don't mind. It keeps me busy. 5 days a week, i kinda of wish i worked more, considering i'm saving for my own snowboard, an iPOD, a car, and my ticket from my little accident during MDW.
Yeah so this summer was amazing, North Carolina was insanely crazy, with eric, amanda, ashley, kristen, diana, joey, hope, ray and all those kids. Oh yeah and those to hot kids John & Josh. haha
Sleepovers at amanda's were fun to say the least.
[[ i totally crave your wave ]] haha
and calling eric at 3:30 in the moring, just so he could read our jokes. haha.
AND of course canal street, because we were there every other week. It's bad when the people there remember you from the last time you were there. haha
Anyways, moving on. I saw my dad last week driving in his new car with his bitchy wife. and i got really upset. it upsets me that he says he wants to be a "father" but then does stupid things and ignores me and my sister. and he doesn't act like a father, but he wants to be treating like one. so i got my license in june and i don't have a car yet, only because i have no money what so ever. so i figured since my dad has three cars and his new one which would make 4 cars and only two people who are actually able to drive them. I called to ask if i could borrow one until i can afford my own, since he wasn't giving me any money for it, so he said no and to not call him again. so i got really upset. like he can buy a car for his new wife, and my 15 year old step sister, but not for his own daughter and i wasn't even asking for the new one. i was asking for the old explorer. and he still said no. and even though he treats me like that, i being the stupid ass that i am. still misses him. it's so hard to just let someone who you were so close to when you were younger, just walk out of your life. like they meant nothing. honestly it's really hard. considering that me and my dad always got along when i was younger and i was daddy's little girl, and it was still like this when i was older and my parents were divorced. but as soon as he met his wife. he felt that she was more important than his own kids and he gave up a relationship with his kids. and it hurts more than words can explain.
ahh. thats all for today.
tomorrow some more
♥♥
I think im gonna start again.
Summer's almost over. I'm kinda of happy, don't get me wrong. summer was amazing and i had so much fun. But i wanna go back to school. I wanna see everyone i haven't seen. AND it's senior year, so hopefully it will be crazy, with no drama?
So i've been working alot. But i don't mind. It keeps me busy. 5 days a week, i kinda of wish i worked more, considering i'm saving for my own snowboard, an iPOD, a car, and my ticket from my little accident during MDW.
Yeah so this summer was amazing, North Carolina was insanely crazy, with eric, amanda, ashley, kristen, diana, joey, hope, ray and all those kids. Oh yeah and those to hot kids John & Josh. haha
Sleepovers at amanda's were fun to say the least.
[[ i totally crave your wave ]] haha
and calling eric at 3:30 in the moring, just so he could read our jokes. haha.
AND of course canal street, because we were there every other week. It's bad when the people there remember you from the last time you were there. haha
Anyways, moving on. I saw my dad last week driving in his new car with his bitchy wife. and i got really upset. it upsets me that he says he wants to be a "father" but then does stupid things and ignores me and my sister. and he doesn't act like a father, but he wants to be treating like one. so i got my license in june and i don't have a car yet, only because i have no money what so ever. so i figured since my dad has three cars and his new one which would make 4 cars and only two people who are actually able to drive them. I called to ask if i could borrow one until i can afford my own, since he wasn't giving me any money for it, so he said no and to not call him again. so i got really upset. like he can buy a car for his new wife, and my 15 year old step sister, but not for his own daughter and i wasn't even asking for the new one. i was asking for the old explorer. and he still said no. and even though he treats me like that, i being the stupid ass that i am. still misses him. it's so hard to just let someone who you were so close to when you were younger, just walk out of your life. like they meant nothing. honestly it's really hard. considering that me and my dad always got along when i was younger and i was daddy's little girl, and it was still like this when i was older and my parents were divorced. but as soon as he met his wife. he felt that she was more important than his own kids and he gave up a relationship with his kids. and it hurts more than words can explain.
ahh. thats all for today.
tomorrow some more
♥♥