its a CRAZY world we live in!*!*!*!
Hey, whats going on, whoever reads this shit....Well yep yep yep. Things are good but really confusing right now. So well Ty likes me!!! which is good. but i dont know if i like him :( so i guess it's not good. i mena its totally awesome and hes totally sweet i just dont think its the same for me as it is for him. So he asked me out (like i knew he would) and i told him i didnt know yet and i would have to get back to him later. i think it made him sad. i dont think im gonna go out with him for a bunch of reasons. One: Because i dont think we like eachother the same way. Two: Because josh likes me and i really dont want to hurt him. i know Sammy is going out with Alex and that made hims sad. Hell it made me sad too. But i dont want to do that to him either. Three: Summmer is right around the corner. i'm going on to vacations and i have gaurd 2 days a week all summer and i have gaurd camp for about 3 weeks (almost). i mean thats alot of my summer. Ive never been the person that hangs out with people alot after school so that might suck. i mean hell ive only been to one guys house... Eljays once(god i miss him so much, he is so great ive gotten past everything else and relized alot of things to help me better understand hima nd be a better friend to him i realy really miss him. so much. i have to hang out with him soon. very soon.). Oh and i went to this kid named Devons party but that doesn really count.i dont want to have a relationship over the summer just incase something happens. or we never see eachother. i mean i have a friend of the family coming to visit for a while possibly and although nothing would happen between us cause i have known him for sooo long but hes supposed to be road tripping it with a few friends and liz and her friends are coming up. last time lix was here so was he and they hit it off so i dont know whats gonna happen this time!!! well i feel really bad but i have basically decided that im going to have to say no to Ty. On a different note. there is this guy named justin i know and i guess talk to a bit and i think he likes me he cool but i dont really know him. i think he smokes thats no good. hmm doesnt really matter anyways.
I kinda feel like Eljay right now, hes always saying hes falling apart anf now i feel like im falling apart. i mean i have broken my arm for the 8th time and its pretty much fucked i have to keep it in this brace thing except when i spin riffle. it sucks and i dont really like it. My back is Killing me and it has been for the last 2 days now its gotten to the point that every step hurt i cant bend down and IB profen ISNT WORKING. There other shit but i really feel like my body is starting to fail on me. i know it wont though i know that as soon as summer comes and i can get a little more rest with out so much stress ill be alright.
I kinda feel like Eljay right now, hes always saying hes falling apart anf now i feel like im falling apart. i mean i have broken my arm for the 8th time and its pretty much fucked i have to keep it in this brace thing except when i spin riffle. it sucks and i dont really like it. My back is Killing me and it has been for the last 2 days now its gotten to the point that every step hurt i cant bend down and IB profen ISNT WORKING. There other shit but i really feel like my body is starting to fail on me. i know it wont though i know that as soon as summer comes and i can get a little more rest with out so much stress ill be alright.