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ok so i was told this could create drama so i took it off but its back i mean i respect what she said but i dont care anymore its how i feel so...w/e if anyone gets mad at what i say they are stupid because im not saying anything rude i dont want to offend anyone i just like my opinoin....love you all
So yea, lifes getting better but only cause im making it better. Alex, is still awesome but he isnt into anyone right now and he doeesnt want a girl so thats ok. Last time i lied i said i was getting over Eljay, but im not no im not at all. I dont know what it is about that boy but...gosh hes great! i dont even know... honestly right now i just want a relationship with someone i have feelingds for even if its spur of the moment. I dont know i dont seem to be lucky with those types of things.
Alex Rant: Alex is a great guy. what makes him greater is he doesnt lie. He tells me the truth which is totally good. Even though i may not want to hear it. I really like that in a guy. Its also cool that i can kinda just walk up to him and be like " hey, can i steal you for a second" and hes always like "sure". And we go to a quiet place and just talk about whatever i need to at the time. He always listnes and tries to help me or just give his input which i really enjoy. Yea, hes a great guy. And then well be talking and even if were kinda just being quiet or whatever he wont leave untill he knows im ready to back. Which is great its like i never get left behind or left for someone /somthing more important. he makes me feel special.
Eljay Rant: Eljays amazing.i just have to keep in mind hes NOT single. But i can still dream (not like that, keep it clean). He wont lie to me either. And if i need to i feel like i can talk to him about the world. I really enjoy hanging out with him just his prensence is way cool. Hes a good guy and brutally honest at times which is what the world needs. i guess i should stop untill i get wrapped up in my sorrow again.
Max Rant: Ive relized, i think, that .Max doesnt like me like that. Im not too offended because supposably he doesnt like alot of people. He talkd to me so its all good. I like it when he says hi to me first online, its really stupid but i like it. Hes a good guy as well. Although he claims hes pure evil. But hes not. i wish he was more of a phone person. but hes not and i accept that.i dont know if he would ever lie to me but im fairly sure he wouldnt. i havent quite decided if he evn likes me as a friend but untill he tells me differnt im going to believe and hope that he does!
Chris Rant: NOt that i like chris but i really miss him Chris is a good guy needs to stop smoking but a good guy! hes really nice and he was always there for me although he needed me more then i needed him. I dont know i just miss him.
Rant about sex: Sex is stupid at this age and im sick of being pressured to do it. I mean its not my style. I am to young to be taking any chances. of anything. I dont know i guess i dont mind that my friends do it but i do mind that they pressdure me to. Also what the hell is with Rap its fucking stupid all it talks about is sexand drugs basically i was watching videos and "candy shop" by 50 cents came on and its like a porno with clothes basically its like as close as you can get. I bet theres gguys that get off to that video ...gross. Goshhhhh
Drugs Rant: im sick of it...so sick... fuck you people and your drug cause i dont want them....you all can go on your ten minute high and thenget your own damn life. I mean my friends do it and thats ok but SHUT UP i dont care i dont give a shit about it. and im n gonna do it. oh and so you know if i am aware that you smoke i more then likely wont give you money so DONT ASK. gosh im sick of you people so go away.
Heroine? Rant: heroine heroine what the hell how did she get a hold of heroine. From what i understand sam is doing heroine. lets add up the math i think theres a few anserws so bear with me. Sam + Heroine = Pissed off Tsylor...another ? ok...Sam + heroine = fucked up....Sam + heroine = dumb...Sam + Heroine = pissed off Taylor. God i cant believe it and its not even that i cant beleive shes doing it i cant believe she can get it. I mean some one please tell me where the hell a kid can get heroine. I mean i was ok with kids getting weed but heroine? how the hell, i feel stupid, the thought never even crossed mt mind.
More Eljay Rant: You got me hooked on the qeustion what are you wearing...itn sucks.
Bye
So yea, lifes getting better but only cause im making it better. Alex, is still awesome but he isnt into anyone right now and he doeesnt want a girl so thats ok. Last time i lied i said i was getting over Eljay, but im not no im not at all. I dont know what it is about that boy but...gosh hes great! i dont even know... honestly right now i just want a relationship with someone i have feelingds for even if its spur of the moment. I dont know i dont seem to be lucky with those types of things.
Alex Rant: Alex is a great guy. what makes him greater is he doesnt lie. He tells me the truth which is totally good. Even though i may not want to hear it. I really like that in a guy. Its also cool that i can kinda just walk up to him and be like " hey, can i steal you for a second" and hes always like "sure". And we go to a quiet place and just talk about whatever i need to at the time. He always listnes and tries to help me or just give his input which i really enjoy. Yea, hes a great guy. And then well be talking and even if were kinda just being quiet or whatever he wont leave untill he knows im ready to back. Which is great its like i never get left behind or left for someone /somthing more important. he makes me feel special.
Eljay Rant: Eljays amazing.i just have to keep in mind hes NOT single. But i can still dream (not like that, keep it clean). He wont lie to me either. And if i need to i feel like i can talk to him about the world. I really enjoy hanging out with him just his prensence is way cool. Hes a good guy and brutally honest at times which is what the world needs. i guess i should stop untill i get wrapped up in my sorrow again.
Max Rant: Ive relized, i think, that .Max doesnt like me like that. Im not too offended because supposably he doesnt like alot of people. He talkd to me so its all good. I like it when he says hi to me first online, its really stupid but i like it. Hes a good guy as well. Although he claims hes pure evil. But hes not. i wish he was more of a phone person. but hes not and i accept that.i dont know if he would ever lie to me but im fairly sure he wouldnt. i havent quite decided if he evn likes me as a friend but untill he tells me differnt im going to believe and hope that he does!
Chris Rant: NOt that i like chris but i really miss him Chris is a good guy needs to stop smoking but a good guy! hes really nice and he was always there for me although he needed me more then i needed him. I dont know i just miss him.
Rant about sex: Sex is stupid at this age and im sick of being pressured to do it. I mean its not my style. I am to young to be taking any chances. of anything. I dont know i guess i dont mind that my friends do it but i do mind that they pressdure me to. Also what the hell is with Rap its fucking stupid all it talks about is sexand drugs basically i was watching videos and "candy shop" by 50 cents came on and its like a porno with clothes basically its like as close as you can get. I bet theres gguys that get off to that video ...gross. Goshhhhh
Drugs Rant: im sick of it...so sick... fuck you people and your drug cause i dont want them....you all can go on your ten minute high and thenget your own damn life. I mean my friends do it and thats ok but SHUT UP i dont care i dont give a shit about it. and im n gonna do it. oh and so you know if i am aware that you smoke i more then likely wont give you money so DONT ASK. gosh im sick of you people so go away.
Heroine? Rant: heroine heroine what the hell how did she get a hold of heroine. From what i understand sam is doing heroine. lets add up the math i think theres a few anserws so bear with me. Sam + Heroine = Pissed off Tsylor...another ? ok...Sam + heroine = fucked up....Sam + heroine = dumb...Sam + Heroine = pissed off Taylor. God i cant believe it and its not even that i cant beleive shes doing it i cant believe she can get it. I mean some one please tell me where the hell a kid can get heroine. I mean i was ok with kids getting weed but heroine? how the hell, i feel stupid, the thought never even crossed mt mind.
More Eljay Rant: You got me hooked on the qeustion what are you wearing...itn sucks.
Bye