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My husband is away playing war. (in the army) He is under soo much stress and so am j. I broke. I cut so bad. so bad. It felt so good. I couldn't do it. I was under so much stress at work and home and i only get to talk to him maybe once every six days for 5 min. Thats it. While he was away.. at out of all time it hit me that my best friend is dead, she has been gone two years, it just hit me. I never wanted to ever excpet that she is dead. Corey is dead. I miss her. I never said sorry, I regret so much. I am so sorry for all I did. If I would have said sorry that night, that drunk driver would not have hit her. No he would not of. If I did not tell joe not to go after her, he would be alive to. All of this hit me now that he is away. I am so alone. I have no friends in Ohio and no one to talk to. Now I got to a empty bed alone. I wish I was sleeping with Corey. I  do not know what to do.

RIP
Corey Lynn.
1/3/86-5/21/05

I am sorry if everything is spelled wrong. I am typing this in tears.