something to ponder on.
i've been thinking about a lot of things lately.
especially with ring ceremony happening.
it made me take a look at everyone and realize how half of these people either look like they're ready to graduate and how the other half, just aren't.
everything is beginning now. yes we've been taking our SAT prep classes, making lists of colleges for our counselors, talking to our counselors and parents about our futures. but to anyone else, does it feel like this month is really the time where we hit the ground running with this? i mean we got our rings friday night, the first new SAT was distributed this morning at 8 AM (i didn't take it), and robin and i visited SMU this morning. College is really becoming a serious matter now. It's nothing like it was before, saying "oh yeah, i wanna go to _____ University and major in _____." I was sitting there with all these students and parents at SMU and as we were walking around campus, it just made me realize how much things are going to change a year from now. To all those who know me, ever since freshman year i've been ready to graduate and go off on my own. I feel i have a strong independent personality where I can handle myself. But right now, the idea of being an adult frightens me. The fact that I havent had a legitimate job yet and i'm going to be 18 in 7 months, scares me. How am I going to know how to manage my money? When I do get a job, how do I know what to do when income tax comes around? Or regular taxes for that matter. Being on my own in college doesn't frighten me. It's the responsibilities with bills and money that scares me. I have 6 colleges in mind that I would like to go to. Them being:
- University of Kansas
- University of Oklahoma
- Texas Tech University
- University of Texas at Austin
- University of Missouri; Columbia (Mizzou)
- St. Louis University
yes they're all public universities except for SLU, and i dont mind. all of my friends are interested in the big ivy leage schools. i've been told that i'm chosing safe schools and not branching out, but at the same time i don't see myself applying to Pepperdine or Johns Hopkins or any of those. I wouldn't fit there, heck i know i wouldn't even get in. It's just frustrating when someone tells me im underestimating myself when i know my own boundaries myself, i'm sorry if my thinking is logical and practical. I'm going to enter with an undecided major, but i'm going to schedule my classes around pre-advertisement//graphic art classes. there's so much about advertisement that i need to learn more about. i just wish i had something that i was really good at. something that just STANDS OUT.
Ironic as it seems since i brought up the issue of colleges, i'm frankly sick of talking about them, the SAT and etc. Except now it's something i can't avoid. its something i cant put off. i have to really crack down on preparing for the ACT and SAT. i have to start looking at more colleges and finding out what i really want in a college. the only problem with this though. is that it seems like every college is the same. Yes, they're different, but they're all still the same in a general aspect, some just father or closer to home than others. I havent found a college that has really gotten my attention like "oh wow, this is awesome." i mean yes i'm partial to my first 3 choices of colleges because i can really see myself at any 3 of those (KU, OU, and TTU). Even though SMU is so close to home, not to mention not even 10 minutes away from my own high school, i'll probably apply there just for the heck of it and because my grandma wants me to. I've got a pretty big list of schools i'm applying to, but not necessarily the kinda i really want to go to. All this talk about college is making me feel sick. its either that or serious lack of sleep that's really having its effects on me. this week is going to be utter hell, but im not going to get into it. i mean its just high school.....pfffff. HA.
any comments on anything that i've said, are welcomed. :]
especially with ring ceremony happening.
it made me take a look at everyone and realize how half of these people either look like they're ready to graduate and how the other half, just aren't.
everything is beginning now. yes we've been taking our SAT prep classes, making lists of colleges for our counselors, talking to our counselors and parents about our futures. but to anyone else, does it feel like this month is really the time where we hit the ground running with this? i mean we got our rings friday night, the first new SAT was distributed this morning at 8 AM (i didn't take it), and robin and i visited SMU this morning. College is really becoming a serious matter now. It's nothing like it was before, saying "oh yeah, i wanna go to _____ University and major in _____." I was sitting there with all these students and parents at SMU and as we were walking around campus, it just made me realize how much things are going to change a year from now. To all those who know me, ever since freshman year i've been ready to graduate and go off on my own. I feel i have a strong independent personality where I can handle myself. But right now, the idea of being an adult frightens me. The fact that I havent had a legitimate job yet and i'm going to be 18 in 7 months, scares me. How am I going to know how to manage my money? When I do get a job, how do I know what to do when income tax comes around? Or regular taxes for that matter. Being on my own in college doesn't frighten me. It's the responsibilities with bills and money that scares me. I have 6 colleges in mind that I would like to go to. Them being:
- University of Kansas
- University of Oklahoma
- Texas Tech University
- University of Texas at Austin
- University of Missouri; Columbia (Mizzou)
- St. Louis University
yes they're all public universities except for SLU, and i dont mind. all of my friends are interested in the big ivy leage schools. i've been told that i'm chosing safe schools and not branching out, but at the same time i don't see myself applying to Pepperdine or Johns Hopkins or any of those. I wouldn't fit there, heck i know i wouldn't even get in. It's just frustrating when someone tells me im underestimating myself when i know my own boundaries myself, i'm sorry if my thinking is logical and practical. I'm going to enter with an undecided major, but i'm going to schedule my classes around pre-advertisement//graphic art classes. there's so much about advertisement that i need to learn more about. i just wish i had something that i was really good at. something that just STANDS OUT.
Ironic as it seems since i brought up the issue of colleges, i'm frankly sick of talking about them, the SAT and etc. Except now it's something i can't avoid. its something i cant put off. i have to really crack down on preparing for the ACT and SAT. i have to start looking at more colleges and finding out what i really want in a college. the only problem with this though. is that it seems like every college is the same. Yes, they're different, but they're all still the same in a general aspect, some just father or closer to home than others. I havent found a college that has really gotten my attention like "oh wow, this is awesome." i mean yes i'm partial to my first 3 choices of colleges because i can really see myself at any 3 of those (KU, OU, and TTU). Even though SMU is so close to home, not to mention not even 10 minutes away from my own high school, i'll probably apply there just for the heck of it and because my grandma wants me to. I've got a pretty big list of schools i'm applying to, but not necessarily the kinda i really want to go to. All this talk about college is making me feel sick. its either that or serious lack of sleep that's really having its effects on me. this week is going to be utter hell, but im not going to get into it. i mean its just high school.....pfffff. HA.
any comments on anything that i've said, are welcomed. :]