It's the time again
Have you ever had too
many things gone on in your mind at once and you cannot focus on what you are
doing? That's the path that this is going at, but I'm not really in the mood to
care what is said. At the current time I am listening to Horse the Band because
I enjoy listening to them, with their sexy breakdowns. Lately I've been
listening to random things or Miles Davis. The smooth beats of jazz, its
romantic melody, and its mellow tone just gets me to relax. Music is a
beautiful thing and I've come to fall in to some emotionally, and I'm not to
sure how. An example of this was when I was watching "Life of the
Aquatic" and the scene at the end came up with the song
"Staralfur" in the background. The scene made me cry, I just became
so emotionally involved for some reason.
Any who the last time I updated this was when school started and much has changed since then. School is hard because I'm doing my work and I truly believe it will be the death of me. While trying to complete my homework and juggle work hours at the same time, I believe that I'll pull through some how whether on top or on the bottom I shall over com'ith. A majority of the time I'm skeptical what's going on around me because I don't seem to always give it my best, but I believe it'll go fine. I just try to have fun and that's what I am doing.
I'm still currently in the relationship I've been in for the past 7 months and 10 days for. We went shopping today and I got a lot of cute and soft clothes, sadly I do not know how to shop cheap. At the current time I am trying to figure out what I'm getting her for Christmas, I have good ideas but you can never over buy things for the lady. It's early but I like to plan ahead and such. But today I noticed something, I noticed something I could never really imagine, that I'm madly in love with a beautiful girl that stole my heart away. I believe that strikes me every once and a while, it's just so shocking and makes me ever so happy. I would never imagine that I would ever be in a relationship for so long, or that I would be so truly happy and in love with this girl. I presume I shouldn't rant, but I just really love her. To me she is like a drug that I became dependent on and I become high off of her just by the grace of her, her presence captures me and makes me giddy like a 5 year old. I sound like a young kid who is in love for the first time, but that's exactly what I am.
Lately in life I've come to find a new life that I dwell in. I am a Christian now and such. The whole church scene and such is how I roll. The main topic at hand is that lately I was confused at life at the moment. The path that I was starting to turn down, the path of thought was making my mind become troublesome. This unsure journey is something I strive for day by day lately, but for something I've never seen down this road and it seems to have no end. The feeling of confusion is something I do not like to dabble in, but when it hits it sticks like a sort of glue that irritates me. These feelings are triggered by what is going on with my family for there is nothing I can do about it but just continue to witness what is going on. The confusion is struck from that because I want to aid them but I cannot do any effort at all. It seems that I abandon them in a time of need, and all I can seem to do is doubt I at the moment. Faith in religion has come to a mean of a way out. In a way it turns the dark and troublesome road to become full of light. My eyes come to see what has never been and my heart wants to only know its all clear now. As I write I begin to wonder if it is all becoming so clear to my simple mind, and if my fall is a product of my impatience for what I cannot help, for time has to take its course and I just have to do what I can. My efforts will be in silence and I will come to conquer what makes my mind grow dull. I presume this is a sort of test in a way, a test for the truth and of me. My faith is solid and I gain God's glory.
So there you have it, my new update. I've been hounded by someone to do this and now I've come around to it. I hope you enjoyed and come back again for another run next month. Until then, see you space cowboy.
Any who the last time I updated this was when school started and much has changed since then. School is hard because I'm doing my work and I truly believe it will be the death of me. While trying to complete my homework and juggle work hours at the same time, I believe that I'll pull through some how whether on top or on the bottom I shall over com'ith. A majority of the time I'm skeptical what's going on around me because I don't seem to always give it my best, but I believe it'll go fine. I just try to have fun and that's what I am doing.
I'm still currently in the relationship I've been in for the past 7 months and 10 days for. We went shopping today and I got a lot of cute and soft clothes, sadly I do not know how to shop cheap. At the current time I am trying to figure out what I'm getting her for Christmas, I have good ideas but you can never over buy things for the lady. It's early but I like to plan ahead and such. But today I noticed something, I noticed something I could never really imagine, that I'm madly in love with a beautiful girl that stole my heart away. I believe that strikes me every once and a while, it's just so shocking and makes me ever so happy. I would never imagine that I would ever be in a relationship for so long, or that I would be so truly happy and in love with this girl. I presume I shouldn't rant, but I just really love her. To me she is like a drug that I became dependent on and I become high off of her just by the grace of her, her presence captures me and makes me giddy like a 5 year old. I sound like a young kid who is in love for the first time, but that's exactly what I am.
Lately in life I've come to find a new life that I dwell in. I am a Christian now and such. The whole church scene and such is how I roll. The main topic at hand is that lately I was confused at life at the moment. The path that I was starting to turn down, the path of thought was making my mind become troublesome. This unsure journey is something I strive for day by day lately, but for something I've never seen down this road and it seems to have no end. The feeling of confusion is something I do not like to dabble in, but when it hits it sticks like a sort of glue that irritates me. These feelings are triggered by what is going on with my family for there is nothing I can do about it but just continue to witness what is going on. The confusion is struck from that because I want to aid them but I cannot do any effort at all. It seems that I abandon them in a time of need, and all I can seem to do is doubt I at the moment. Faith in religion has come to a mean of a way out. In a way it turns the dark and troublesome road to become full of light. My eyes come to see what has never been and my heart wants to only know its all clear now. As I write I begin to wonder if it is all becoming so clear to my simple mind, and if my fall is a product of my impatience for what I cannot help, for time has to take its course and I just have to do what I can. My efforts will be in silence and I will come to conquer what makes my mind grow dull. I presume this is a sort of test in a way, a test for the truth and of me. My faith is solid and I gain God's glory.
So there you have it, my new update. I've been hounded by someone to do this and now I've come around to it. I hope you enjoyed and come back again for another run next month. Until then, see you space cowboy.