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[lonely_loser]

lets see time for an update i guess

mcas was today it was alrite..kinda easy.. finsihed early read my teen people fun stuff i tell you

i dunno wahts up for this weekend its only monday but hopefully ill get to hang out with kathy or sarahjean i miss them so <3

..i dunno if im getting better or im just gettin used to the pain..

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[snappedarrow]

Springs morning light has faded
It never did last long
The rains have come and left us
And Summers sun has gone
The bleak regret of Winter
Is all that lies ahead
We're standing at the end of Autumn
And everything is dead
The leaves already turned to grace
Then wilted, shrank, and fell
The frost has stolen all our warmth
And now it's cold as hell
The trees hang down like skeletons
Weak, destroyed and thin
But all the love still lies outdoors
For it's bleaker still within
And Autumn has us drowning
Suffocating in the cold
We waited for its beauty
Then watched nature's death unfold
Meaning was what we looked for
And decay is all we found
And the evidence is mocking
Icy fire scorched the ground
And everything is gray and white
When this time comes around
Winter's hateful and full of pain
Because Autumn drags you down
And against such odds, how do we fight?
Time's passing can't be stopped
And each year, despite the harvest
Everyone loses some crops
Resist the cold, break through the ice
Still you will get nowhere
Run to the warmest place on earth
The cold will find you there
So when you find a man screaming
On his knees, broken and cowed
Image just how cold he is
The Winter has him now

I was looking at that cause I wrote it a while ago and it occured to me that the winter's ending, spring is coming back... Everyone feels better this time of year, and it occured to me that I was upset because nothing seemed worth trusting or believing in, nothing lasted forever. But that's a double edged sword; cause this pain, the depression, the mistrust and the self-doubt, those can't last forever either. They'll come and go I'm sure, but they don't have the iron-fisted grip on my life that I thought. So you can't get used to the pain, Bri, cause it's temporary, and true, burning pain renews itself constantly, you CANT get used to it. So maybe we are getting better... Maybe we're not. But it's always worth waking up the next day, whether because you can find something that makes you happy, or if you can sit miserable at home flinging bad poetry and useless sentiments at depressed friends to make them smile. No matter what, we can all serve a purpose.

...Just some shit to think about.

[lonely_loser]

your too nice to me.. but what you wrote was awesome.. and i appreciate the comment.. and i hope i dont push you away like the others =\