A Blast From The Past.. A Step Into The Future..
Stumbeling across old journals brings back so mant memories nothing is ever how it is written... I was so different then my mind worked differently.. I wanted different things... my life was going nowhere fast and I was ok with that... craziness how so much can change.... I acctually know where I want to go in my life and what I want in my life... I have goals and dreams!!!!
Even tho things have been crazy and screwed up at times Ive held onto these dreams Ive been with dan for almost 3 years straight... I never thought I could stay with someone that long or that someone could stay with me that long normally by now I would of broken up and re hooked up with whoever... thats just how I was all my longest relationships were on and off relationships I think the most I stuck with someone was prior to me and dan I was with brian a lil over a year straight... and here I am now..
Im moving.. Im moving far away just saying that scares me Im scared for so many reasons 1st off Im uprooting my whole life Im also uprooting the kids draven should be ok he's still little but I know emily will be somewhat effected Im taking her away from everyone she loves.. I hope she adjusts ok..
and then theres me I keep telling myself it's for the best Im gonna be that much close to starting to accomplish my goals but to walk away from everyone here is so fucking hard... My Hunnie has been so sweet and has been making life easier in so many ways but at the same time it's even harder to go...
I just hope and pray Im making the right decision I hope that if I work really hard this will all fall into place
Even tho things have been crazy and screwed up at times Ive held onto these dreams Ive been with dan for almost 3 years straight... I never thought I could stay with someone that long or that someone could stay with me that long normally by now I would of broken up and re hooked up with whoever... thats just how I was all my longest relationships were on and off relationships I think the most I stuck with someone was prior to me and dan I was with brian a lil over a year straight... and here I am now..
Im moving.. Im moving far away just saying that scares me Im scared for so many reasons 1st off Im uprooting my whole life Im also uprooting the kids draven should be ok he's still little but I know emily will be somewhat effected Im taking her away from everyone she loves.. I hope she adjusts ok..
and then theres me I keep telling myself it's for the best Im gonna be that much close to starting to accomplish my goals but to walk away from everyone here is so fucking hard... My Hunnie has been so sweet and has been making life easier in so many ways but at the same time it's even harder to go...
I just hope and pray Im making the right decision I hope that if I work really hard this will all fall into place