Changing my old disguise!!!!!!
I am so quick to change my identity. Maybe cause the other one was a lie. But i thought thats who i was. I guess it was a good diguise. It even fooled me. But now i suppose im a prep. The people i hated so much. The stuck up losers. But now i am a loser. .............Another thing that came to mind is that...am i doin this to get someone i cant have. Am i changing for a person. That is low. I am going against everything i once believed in. Im addicted. Wat am i goin to do.
My couz is a heavy drinker. He smokes too. He is only 19. He is really fucked up. I had a drink with him this weekend. I got dizzy after a few gulps. It wasnt as bad as i thought. It makes some feelings go away. I know now why people our age drink. It helps deal with all the crap in our lives.
My parents might buy me a car. Thats wat my couz told me. He has accurate info most the time. Hopefully its a good one if they do. i dont want them to be all possesive about it either. Like i wont be able to go out cause its their car. My parents are like that. But i will have to pay the insurance for it. SO maybe it will be in my name. That would be awsome.
This weekend was full of highs and lows. I think i am gunna be a pot head. and i think i might get a jo at hot topic. So i cant really tell if this weekend was the most depressing or the most exciting. I couldnt sleep last night. I was confused the whole night. I kill this entry like my couz killed bottles of beer all weekend.
My couz is a heavy drinker. He smokes too. He is only 19. He is really fucked up. I had a drink with him this weekend. I got dizzy after a few gulps. It wasnt as bad as i thought. It makes some feelings go away. I know now why people our age drink. It helps deal with all the crap in our lives.
My parents might buy me a car. Thats wat my couz told me. He has accurate info most the time. Hopefully its a good one if they do. i dont want them to be all possesive about it either. Like i wont be able to go out cause its their car. My parents are like that. But i will have to pay the insurance for it. SO maybe it will be in my name. That would be awsome.
This weekend was full of highs and lows. I think i am gunna be a pot head. and i think i might get a jo at hot topic. So i cant really tell if this weekend was the most depressing or the most exciting. I couldnt sleep last night. I was confused the whole night. I kill this entry like my couz killed bottles of beer all weekend.