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[lonely_eyes]

So I cried today while at work. It's a good thing I was outside and with Cathy and JoAnn. My mom refuses to let me stay in DeKalb next year. If I do, I will have to pay for my school, rent (which I would've done), food (which I would've done), a possible car and insurance, my phone, etc. Nick called me while I was at work because my mom called him to check up on me. How fucking typical is that of her? EXTREMELY. My manager, Beth, kept telling me that she thinks I'd be able to make it on my own, but how do I know that? What if I fail miserably? What if I go into debt? What if I can't afford rent one month?

I'm going to be so miserable at home. I feel like dropping out of school and working multiple jobs to save money to move out. I decided that's what I'm going to put my money aside for: moving out. I give myself a year. If I'm not out by then, I'm a lost cause.

Wish me luck.

Realized I can never win
Sometimes I feel like I have failed
Inside where do I begin
My mind is laughing at me
Tell me why am I to blame
Aren't we suppose to be the same
That's why I will never tame
This thing that's burning in me

I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me<

Sometimes I can never tell
If I've got something after me
That's why I just beg and plead
For this curse to leave me
Tell me why am I to blame
Aren't we suppose to be the same
That's why I will never tame
This thing that's burning in me

I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me

Betrayed
I feel so enslaved
I really Tried
I did my time
I did my time
I did my time
I did my time
I did my time

I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me

Oh God, the anger's changing me
Oh God, the anger's changing me
Oh God, the anger's changing me