I gotta lil crush
So i haven't played with this journal much because i decided that this should be the "happy" journal! Problem is i've been utterly depressed for the past two weeks. :(
But i just wanted to share one thing. Despite how crappy my days have been, my nights are amazing. I met this really cool guy named Tony over the internet. He doesn't know about this journal. Anyways, we've been talking to one another on the phone for the past week or so and hes just been the perfect end to my crappy ass day. I dunno...that poet that came last year told be that you know when you met the one your meant to be with when you aren;t thinking about how much you like him but how much you like yourself when you're around him. I just...everytime i hear his voice i literally forget how bad a i felt because all that seems meaningless now. Even things that i would pretty much bitch slap someone over if they said it to me... he'll say it and i still think its cute. Its hard to explain but...i really like this guy.
My only problem is that he lives so far away. As in Oklahoma far away. :( He says he wants to come up here but i know that if/when he does hes gonna wanna have sex. Me being the good girl virgin is not so sure about that. :( I don;t want to stress over it much cuz if he dies its not gonna be for a while. The earliest he would do it would be Thanxgiving break and whoknows what might happen by then.
Who knows.
But i just wanted to share one thing. Despite how crappy my days have been, my nights are amazing. I met this really cool guy named Tony over the internet. He doesn't know about this journal. Anyways, we've been talking to one another on the phone for the past week or so and hes just been the perfect end to my crappy ass day. I dunno...that poet that came last year told be that you know when you met the one your meant to be with when you aren;t thinking about how much you like him but how much you like yourself when you're around him. I just...everytime i hear his voice i literally forget how bad a i felt because all that seems meaningless now. Even things that i would pretty much bitch slap someone over if they said it to me... he'll say it and i still think its cute. Its hard to explain but...i really like this guy.
My only problem is that he lives so far away. As in Oklahoma far away. :( He says he wants to come up here but i know that if/when he does hes gonna wanna have sex. Me being the good girl virgin is not so sure about that. :( I don;t want to stress over it much cuz if he dies its not gonna be for a while. The earliest he would do it would be Thanxgiving break and whoknows what might happen by then.
Who knows.