fuck
i hate it ... im stupid .. i shouldnt have got so upset but it was just something hit me and i dont know how else to explain it .. i wanna say im sorry .. but i dont know how... and it seems so hard .. theres something missing and i want it back so bad ... i wish i could take it all back .. start over .. i hated the way i treated you it wasnt at all your fault and somehow it didnt come out of my mouth and i held it in ... i wanted so badly to say it but it wouldnt come out i felt like i was going to cry even now i feel like it ... i couldnt even look at you because i felt so horrible .. and now i dont know what to do and its all my fault ... it is and now i dont know how the fuck to fix it !!