more whinging...
People are probably sick of my whinging, but i have no where else to whinge and no one to whinge to. The doctors are messing me around...after waitin at the medical centre for half an hour last week and then the midwife not turning up i was told she would ring me but she hasnt...so i ring them today and am told "well she is here later, i'll ask her to give u a ring tomorrow"...like that is gonna happen!!! I swear this baby will be born before i see a midwife!
My ex boyfriend is being a jerk. He refuses to see that he cannot be a druggie and a dad. Not that he has a choice because i am not let anyone on drugs anywhere near my baby!!! Maybe i am being unfair? But honestly i dont care because this a little person we are talking about who needs someone to protect it and thats what i am doing. Quite honestly i dont care if its gonna b hard for him, he should of thought of that before he started takin drugs. Drugs ruined my childhood and i dont care if it is cannabis or heroin i'm not having any of that near my child!
On a more positive note personally i feel prettty positive and happy. Despite all this hassle that is going on around me i am feeling happier and healthier that i ever have. I'm scared and nervous and stuff but i am still feeling really good! i cant describe it because realistically my life is far from perfect at the moment but i am feeling more perfect than i ever have. Maybe this baby is what i need to put my life on track and actually make something of myself.
Life is good :)