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i keep thinking about if Dan and I will last. I love him so much and he says he loves me. But i dont get why? why would he love me at all? with all the shit he has to deal with along with just being around me? Damon..my parents...they are all things he has to deal with. I dont want him and damon to get into a fight cause i'm afraid he'll eitehr get himslef seriously hurt or even worse killed. And he has a son to worry about and something happens to Dakota or Dan cause of Damon i'm going to blame myself for it. ~sigh~ i guess i'll have to think about that when the time comes. i love him so much. and i hope we last. but what if he moves? he says he'll come back but what if he likes is there and doesn't want to leave? then i'm left here once again with a broken heart. hmm...i wish i could just get a peek into the future so i could atleast prepare for whats to come in my future. but i can't do that and i'm just going to have to roll with the punches and decide what to do when the time comes. i just with i'd even have a clue whats going to happen...