Did I always let you down?
Happy New Year, ladies and gentlemen of LJ. I hope you had (or are having) an excellent start to 2010.
Since LJ's been quieter overall generally, you may not have noticed but I haven't been posting much recently. There are a couple of reasons for that, some of which include that since my ankle sprain I've been a little depressed as well as frustrated. (I tried a brief skate on Tuesday, just to check if I'd be able to take a full training session, and retreated back inside after about 15 minutes, dejected.) The swelling's gone down, but I still have a noticeable limp especially if I try to walk at my (former) usual pace. I can go upstairs with minimal pain, but bending my foot to go down the stairs still hurts, though less than it used to. I have a new sexy ankle support sock, which is actually my size (the other one was a bigger one my sister got when she hurt her foot) so there's actual support now. It's very attractive.
I haven't been doing any exercise since the injury, mainly because I have no idea what I'm capable of, and also don't want to delay the return to skating any longer. I suppose I could at least keep up with stretches and things like sit ups, so I might do that from tomorrow.
I don't feel like I have much of interest to say without roller derby, and it doesn't help that all of my creative hobbies have been neglected recently.
My sister gave me a book the other day that she found at the library (one I can't seem to find right now, which is a bit of a worry) - called Refuse to Choose, and what I've read so far has been messing with my mind*. Like, why do I have to aim for a career when a suitable job will do? Why should I feel guilty about spending money on my hobbies if I get a job that'll pay my bills and leave enough for savings and other obligations as well?
Assuming I am a Scanner (or even if I'm not) - the idea that I shouldn't feel so guilty about hopping about from one interest to another, and it's not necessarily a bad thing if I don't stick with them... it's a lot to take in, really. It might take a while to accept.
I don't 100% accept what I've read so far, though. I'm not sure I could be so calm about hopping from job to job if I just followed my interests rather than my qualifications, because I'm not convinced I could persuade employers to take a chance on me. This past year has made me very cautious when it comes to jobs. (And I don't know if I could even make their faith worthwhile.)
In any case, I never expected to have a career that would fulfil my creative side - I'd like one, sure, but it's never been something that I could take seriously due to familial expectations. So I guess I'm okay with staying in accounting-type roles as long as I have some sort of outlet available to me.
The book has suggestions for calendars, notebooks, lists, and even filing systems to help you deal with your various interests and hobbies. I think I will give it a go, though it may end up being yet another thing I eventually abandon or leave unfinished. But I think it can't hurt - my general unhappiness is generally soothed when I have something to touch/read/look at that I feel happy to have created.
So my resolutions for 2010 are that I want to set aside time regularly to enjoy my hobbies - maybe revisit polymer clay sculpting, drawing, knitting, photography, writing; maybe get more into fashion and improve my sewing, or create my own jewellery and accessories; do more cooking and baking; get back into roller derby; maybe start swimming now and then. I want to also set aside a certain amount of money I earn for my hobbies, so I don't feel guilty about the expense. It will take into account costs like roller derby league membership, Flickr account fees, equipment investments, material purchases, etc.
It works out well for you guys too because if I'm doing more things I'll have more to talk about here, so, yay.
My other resolutions are bigger - to get a permanent-type job, and hopefully that will lead to moving out.
I think that's about it for now. New Year's eve involved a picnic (with punch!), getting rained on a lot, and some meandering around the city vaguely lost (which led to the first point), and then hiding indoors by the time the midnight fireworks started. But it was something, and I enjoyed it.
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Listening to: Jason Webley With Sxip Shirey - Days With You
via FoxyTunes
* Though the references to being "genetically programmed" to be such a way is kind of irritating me... I also don't like all the happy cheery "you're an extremely intelligent, talented person! You can do anything!" - no, I'm not that great, and even if I were that doesn't mean I can't fail. I seem to be a curmudgeon.
Since LJ's been quieter overall generally, you may not have noticed but I haven't been posting much recently. There are a couple of reasons for that, some of which include that since my ankle sprain I've been a little depressed as well as frustrated. (I tried a brief skate on Tuesday, just to check if I'd be able to take a full training session, and retreated back inside after about 15 minutes, dejected.) The swelling's gone down, but I still have a noticeable limp especially if I try to walk at my (former) usual pace. I can go upstairs with minimal pain, but bending my foot to go down the stairs still hurts, though less than it used to. I have a new sexy ankle support sock, which is actually my size (the other one was a bigger one my sister got when she hurt her foot) so there's actual support now. It's very attractive.
I haven't been doing any exercise since the injury, mainly because I have no idea what I'm capable of, and also don't want to delay the return to skating any longer. I suppose I could at least keep up with stretches and things like sit ups, so I might do that from tomorrow.
I don't feel like I have much of interest to say without roller derby, and it doesn't help that all of my creative hobbies have been neglected recently.
My sister gave me a book the other day that she found at the library (one I can't seem to find right now, which is a bit of a worry) - called Refuse to Choose, and what I've read so far has been messing with my mind*. Like, why do I have to aim for a career when a suitable job will do? Why should I feel guilty about spending money on my hobbies if I get a job that'll pay my bills and leave enough for savings and other obligations as well?
Assuming I am a Scanner (or even if I'm not) - the idea that I shouldn't feel so guilty about hopping about from one interest to another, and it's not necessarily a bad thing if I don't stick with them... it's a lot to take in, really. It might take a while to accept.
I don't 100% accept what I've read so far, though. I'm not sure I could be so calm about hopping from job to job if I just followed my interests rather than my qualifications, because I'm not convinced I could persuade employers to take a chance on me. This past year has made me very cautious when it comes to jobs. (And I don't know if I could even make their faith worthwhile.)
In any case, I never expected to have a career that would fulfil my creative side - I'd like one, sure, but it's never been something that I could take seriously due to familial expectations. So I guess I'm okay with staying in accounting-type roles as long as I have some sort of outlet available to me.
The book has suggestions for calendars, notebooks, lists, and even filing systems to help you deal with your various interests and hobbies. I think I will give it a go, though it may end up being yet another thing I eventually abandon or leave unfinished. But I think it can't hurt - my general unhappiness is generally soothed when I have something to touch/read/look at that I feel happy to have created.
So my resolutions for 2010 are that I want to set aside time regularly to enjoy my hobbies - maybe revisit polymer clay sculpting, drawing, knitting, photography, writing; maybe get more into fashion and improve my sewing, or create my own jewellery and accessories; do more cooking and baking; get back into roller derby; maybe start swimming now and then. I want to also set aside a certain amount of money I earn for my hobbies, so I don't feel guilty about the expense. It will take into account costs like roller derby league membership, Flickr account fees, equipment investments, material purchases, etc.
It works out well for you guys too because if I'm doing more things I'll have more to talk about here, so, yay.
My other resolutions are bigger - to get a permanent-type job, and hopefully that will lead to moving out.
I think that's about it for now. New Year's eve involved a picnic (with punch!), getting rained on a lot, and some meandering around the city vaguely lost (which led to the first point), and then hiding indoors by the time the midnight fireworks started. But it was something, and I enjoyed it.
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Listening to: Jason Webley With Sxip Shirey - Days With You
via FoxyTunes
* Though the references to being "genetically programmed" to be such a way is kind of irritating me... I also don't like all the happy cheery "you're an extremely intelligent, talented person! You can do anything!" - no, I'm not that great, and even if I were that doesn't mean I can't fail. I seem to be a curmudgeon.